..FRIENDSHIPBABES....

hi

2008-02-19T17:05:00.002+08:00

the first time is always difficult like people always say...
that’s true in my case..
first time to log in to blog after the great hibernation. I forgot my password as anyone can guess. ye la, who keep a log of their user id/name with corresponding password kan ??
a security no-no.
pas tu, blogger.com dah tukar style la pulak...hmm, lagi la terkial-kial..
tapi, when it comes to things related to money, I always keep them in order n selalu ingat my banks’ password and username/id.
anyway, back to story.
after hibernating for a long time, I decided to check what’s been happening this blog. And my blogmate has spin off to create her own personal blog, lots of cheers for her !!!

summary of happenings to me:
i am sucked into this motherhood roles quite deep and places I surf on the internet semuanya mother or breastfeeding related sites..
plus, I got so much work to do at the office
plus, there are times where I couldn’t surf the internet and times where they pull the plug on the blogspot addresses...
plus, I am so malas to write cos honestly I don’t have much to share. Sikit-sikit boleh laa.
plus, my manager tu suka sangat la come to my workstation unannounced so memang dia selalu kantoi I tgh surf internet or chatting in the ym..tetiba aje, dia ada kat belakang, hampesss...tu yg discourage me even more.
plus, I use my a major portion of my lunchtime to express my milk...

now, my time lagi la limited cos every lunchtime from Tuesday til Thurs, I have a gamelan practise/class. I absolutely love my gamelan class. Now, I dah belajar 15 songs !!!
at least, bagus jugak I ada gamelan class cos I tak de la asyik nak makan aje and menggemukkan diri especially kat perut. And I tak de la asyik nak menghabiskan duit aje....dgn membeli-beli yg tak berkesudahan..
it’s 5 pm already and I must ca alif bot..

Time to move

2007-04-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

It doesn’t feel right.

I’m hogging this blog all to myself when it’s supposed to be a shared one.

I have my own stories to share but I can’t be dominating this blog anymore. Let the original intent of creating Friendshipbabes remain. I’ll contribute when my other bloggermates do too :)

Some friends have suggested that I probably should just start my own blog.

Been thinking about it and yeah, maybe that’s not such a bad idea. I agree it’s time to move on…time to have my own space.

So to the Friendshipbabes readers (not that there’s a lot of you), please do drop by my own blog when you’re free.

http://trueblue-lifestories.blogspot.com/

See you there!

Strange sense of sorrow

2007-04-02T10:05:00.000+08:00

Very strange indeed.

I woke up this morning feeling rather sad. I can't quite figure out why. There's this weird sense of sorrow. Something is missing. Something is not right. Trueblue feels blue.

Nothing happened last night. Didn't dream of anything peculiar. Why am I feeling this way?

Strange...

I am so not gonna be able to work like this. *sigh*

Craving...

2007-03-27T10:59:00.000+08:00

I miss you. Yes, you!

I so envy my colleagues who have nasi lemak for their breakfast.

Its just a simple and plain nasi lemak (see pix) but right now it looks bloody good!! *Trueblue drooling*

I blame my fat ass and big tummy for this.

That naughty little boy!!

2007-03-20T17:14:00.000+08:00

Oohh..I forgot to share this story with you guys.

The incident happened at a toy store a few months back. While happily checking out the toys, I noticed this boy running around the store. He reminded me of Dennis, you know that cheeky little boy from ‘Dennis the Menace’. The boy somehow wanted to annoy us by making these irritating noises and purposely bumping into people. I tried to ignore him, knowing that it’s normal for boys to be boisterous. To quote what a friend said, “I may not approve it but I understand”.

Anyway, I was minding my own business when out of the blue, the boy (whose height was just a few inches below my waist) ran towards me and for no apparent reason grabbed/touched me at my ‘you-know-what’. I was shocked and screamed out “Hey, apa ni??!!!”. He just gave me an innocent little grin and ran away.

Can you guys believe that?

I was appalled by that boy’s behaviour. How on earth do kids that age go around touching strangers at their private parts and think they can get away with it??!! How rude!!! What values (if any) have his parents been teaching him?? If his parents keep ignoring the behaviour, I shudder to think what he’ll turn out to be when he grows up.

%*&*#$!!

I still get very angry every time I re-call the incident.

To bro with love

2007-03-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

It was a sad day for us last Saturday night as we were all at KLIA to send off my youngest brother to Germany. He will be pursuing his Degree in Mechanical Engineering and will be there for four years. Yes, he’s 20 years old but he’ll always be the baby of the family. Yes, he can be stubborn at times but he’s still a sweet kid. He doesn’t get into any major mischief and is always the homebody type (thanks to the influence of our parents!).

It was hard to see him leave as we are so used to seeing him around the house. F* didn’t shed a tear when we hugged goodbye. Maybe nak maintain macho :). I tried hard to control my tears. Didn’t want him to see how sad I was but of course the sadness was too much to bear. Tears were still streaming down my face.

At that point, I had a sudden flashback to the year 1987 when F* was close to a year old and I was in Standard Six. It was one particular evening when my maid was preparing to bake a banana cake. I was in her room at the time, busy looking out for newspaper clippings on Gary Lineker. For those who don’t know, Gary Lineker was an England footballer and I was soooo obsessed with him during those days. When all was ready and the cake was placed in the oven, my maid asked me to babysit my brother while she took a quick shower and reminded me to watch out for F* and don’t let him go anywhere near the oven. Of course I was half listening at the time, being so obsessed with Gary and all.

I remembered F* was in the room with me but somehow I never realised when he started to crawl to the kitchen. I guess I wasn’t really paying attention (still busy looking at the papers). After a few minutes, I heard my brother crying. I ignored it, thinking it wasn’t anything major. All of a sudden, I heard my maid yelling, “*Trueblue*!!!! Kenapa tak tengok F*???!!!”. I quickly ran to the kitchen and was shocked to see my baby brother’s hands were touching the oven. F* was crying like crazy. There were no words to explain my feelings at the time. It was a total negligence on my part. I felt absolutely guilty. My parents weren’t back from work yet so we had to ask our neighbour to take F* to the clinic. The doctor said since we managed to pull F* quite fast, the injury was still under control. Thank God.

When they brought F* back home and I saw his small hands wrapped in bandages, I just burst into tears. F* was smiling and laughing and acted as if nothing happened. He seemed clueless to what the fuss was all about. I was so scared waiting for my parents to come back home. I knew they were gonna kill me and a voice somewhere told me to just run away. Surprisingly, my parents weren’t so mad with me and to this day I wonder why. All I did was hide in my room, crying and praying to God “Ya Allah, tolonglah jangan bagi Daddy and Mummy marah”. After some time, I sneaked out from my room and bumped into Daddy. He just smiled and asked “Dah makan kek pisang?”. Weird…and there I was having panic attacks in my room.

Anyway, F* has a scar on his left hand from that unfortunate incident. It’s small but enough to leave a longlasting memory. Every time I see that scar, I can’t help but feel so angry at myself. I think I will forever hold this guilt. I know he doesn't even remember the incident but the scar would always remind him that it did happen and for that, I would never forgive myself for being so careless that day.

Like I said, it was tough to see him leave that Saturday night. He’s a big boy now and turning into a man but he’ll always be my baby brother. But yeah, it’s time to let him go. It’s time for him to learn new things in a different country and a different language. He needs to be exposed to a different culture and different environment. It's time to be independent. I wish him all the best in his studies and hope things will work out great for him.

Take care, bro. We miss you already. Please know and remember that we love you very much.

Shit happens

2007-03-09T16:13:00.000+08:00

I see it in movies and never thought it would happen to me.

Picture yourself having a great laugh with friends, and then suddenly out of nowhere some bird shit drops and falls on your shoulder. Oh wait, that’s not the worst thing yet. Due to the impact of the drop, some of the shit bounces off to your face. Gross, huh? And of course, it always happens when some cute guy passes by.

Damn bird.

The fickle minded me

2007-03-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

I sometimes tend to over-analyse things to the point that it can become ‘analysis-paralysis’. I also worry a lot which becomes a hindrance when I need to make fast decisions.

My management has offered me a few options about work and have been waiting for an answer since ages ago but for the love of God, I just cannot decide. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Am I being overly cautious? Too afraid to let people down? Fear of making the wrong choice? I guess I just don’t want to disappoint people and you know, in the end humiliate myself if I don’t perform well.

I’ve been thinking and thinking and thinking. Been talking to a few people to get opinions but I have still not come to a conclusion. I just cannot decide. I keep thinking about the ‘what if's’. If I do it this way, what will happen? If I do it the other way, what would be the consequences?

Maybe I’m just thinking TOO MUCH. Stop thinking and just do it, huh? People say, follow your heart. Your heart will know what to do. What does my heart feel? Hmmm..that’s something to think about…Gosh Trueblue…STOP THINKING!!!

And now I have an aching head from all the deep thinking which doesn’t really help when I’m suppose to actually rest my mind.

Talked to a friend earlier and he said “Just make a call and to hell with the rest!!”. Haha..I think that’s exactly what I should do.

Aching head

2007-03-01T10:03:00.000+08:00

What’s a good cure for headaches?

Already went to see the doctor but the pills don’t seem to work.

The dizzy spells started on Sunday and just won’t go away!

My head feels like its spinning and I seriously feel like banging it on the wall.

Oh my poor head….

The long journey home

2007-02-16T11:03:00.000+08:00

When you’re tired, sleepy, have a massive headache and feel like throwing up plus having a leg injury; getting stuck in a traffic jam for 2 bloody hours is the worst feeling ever!!! And it’s even worse when you’re the only one in the car.

I was trying so hard to stay awake, slapping myself a few times. The aircond made me sleepier so I thought I’d wind down the window but the smell of smoke was too much to bear.

I don’t know what happened at the KL-Seremban highway yesterday evening. The cars were bumper to bumper. A journey that should take max 30 minutes from Kajang to my apartment went up to 2 whole hours. I was actually in the verge of tears and was praying hard because it got to a point where I thought I wanted to give up and just leave my car in the middle of the road. I think if I had someone else with me or if I didn’t feel so sick, I would have tolerated the situation much better. My head felt like it was spinning. I was massaging my temples and the back of my neck, hoping the pain would subside.

When everyone feels stressed to be stuck in a traffic jam, it is also not such a great idea to be asked to move our cars for the benefit of the VIPs. There was a point when we heard sirens from the traffic police who screamed out “Beri laluan, Beri laluan” for some big shot. The perks of being a VIP, never having to be caught in a traffic jam. *sigh* We couldn’t even move forward that much, so it was actually hard to give the police and VIP some space to go ahead. I was actually swearing at the time. I guess it would be fine if it was the ambulance or fire brigade but for VIPs, well..it does feel a bit annoying.

I was so glad when I finally reached home. It was a feeling of absolute relief. For all the pain I had to endure for the past 2 hours, the moment I reached the parking lot, I really did feel like kissing the ground. I made it and still alive :). *phew*

my lover boy :)

2007-02-12T11:47:00.000+08:00

A portion of my weekends is usually spent visiting my parents or my in-laws. Since both parents and in-laws live nearby, it is expected for us to pay them a visit every single week. So its either lunch at one place and dinner the other day or vice versa. Kind of tiring I suppose but I guess its ok coz we're used to it. We try to accomodate to their wishes but if we do have our own family things to do, then we do skip that particular week.

Since the birth of my baby nephew last September, visits to my parents has been much more exciting. He is such a cutie pie. Everytime I see him, rasa nak gigit-gigit. So geram! And he just loves to smile. Such a sweet baby. I hope he won't grow as naughty as his big brother though. But no worries, I love them both the same :). Anyway, here's a picture of him. The cutie baby Afif...

Ouwwwwww....

2007-02-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

Just got back from a 3-day teambuilding in Perak. Don't think all issues at the office were resolved but at least we shared some great fun and laughter. There were one or two characters that was still very much annoying but oh-well, can't expect miracles to happen in the 3 days la kan.

The paintball activity was the best. I never played the game before and was quite nervous in the beginning but once I was in it, my God..what an experience. It was fun, fun, fun! When the Marshall said the game would be 5 minutes, I was like "huh? kejapnya". Never would I have thought that the 5 minutes felt like 1 hour. The weather was hot, I was sweating like crazy and I couldnt see much through my mask after the 4th game but I still wanted to move on and shoot, shoot, shoot. I have one bruise on my leg and my body is aching all over but I wouldn't mind doing it again. But of course I need some time to get my body back into shape. Right now it hurts like crazy.

If it weren't for a meeting this morning, I would have taken leave today. It took forever to get out from bed. I need a massage..Big Time...

It doesn't matter

2007-01-31T12:59:00.000+08:00

There are days when I feel like I’m the ugliest person on earth. No matter what I do to make myself feel or look good, wouldn’t work. My hair would look like it has a mind of its own, I would feel fat and my clothes would feel like they are out of date. Everything about me would seem so blah…so plain…so unattractive. I truly hate these days because I can get so depressed with myself. I can bet the people close to me would become irritated because no matter what they say or do to cheer me up, I wouldn’t believe them.

There are also days when I look at myself in the mirror and think, “Hey, I don’t look that bad. In fact, I look kind of cute”. Hehe…I am ashamed to also admit that sometimes I would pose in front of the mirror, smile to myself and say “Yeah, not bad...not bad at all”. These are the days when I can be overly ‘perasan’ about myself. Sekali-sekala puji diri sendiri. No harm, right?

There are even days when I couldn’t care less with how I looked. No effort at all to dress up and look good. So what if I look like a cow? It’s these days that I just can’t be bothered with my appearance.

But most days I just feel thankful with what I have. I may not have the looks to die for but I don’t think my looks make people throw up either. Some people are so obsessed about looking good that without realizing, they are actually causing unnecessary pressure to others.

I just finished reading this book titled ‘Ugly’ by Constance Briscoe. It’s a true story about how the author was physically and emotionally abused by her mother and stepfather throughout her childhood. Her mother would repeatedly tell her that she is ugly, stupid and worthless. She didn’t get enough food at home and was never bought new clothes. Every Christmas she would get the exact same present. In order to survive, she had to work (started at a young age of 11, I think). Her mother even had the cheek to ask for rent from her! She had other siblings but she was the only one who got abused. Her siblings were too afraid to back her up. Because of this entire trauma she wet her bed at night, up until she was in her mid teens. This caused more anger from her mother and she would become more abusive. Constance was punched, kicked, smacked, etc. I really admire Constance’s strength throughout the period. How could a mother do that to her own child? When reading the story, I could actually feel her mother’s hatred towards her. It’s a sad story. I’m glad she survived all the pain. Despite what her mother said, she was determined to have a successful future. She now practices as a barrister and in 1996 became a part-time judge - one of the first black women to sit as a judge in the UK.

The main lesson I learnt from the book is that we need to be strong regardless of what people say and do to put you down. Have the courage to move on and prove to these people that we can make it in life. We must believe in ourselves. I’m just so thankful I didn't have that kind of childhood and to have family and friends who love and care about me. It was really an inspiring story.

It’s not the end of the world if we don’t have good looks, a great body or whatever. It doesn’t mean you can’t achieve anything in life. Love yourself, believe in yourself and your true qualities will come out. Whenever I'm in my depressing mood, I just need to remind myself to be thankful. And of all the things to be thankful for, at the moment I’m just thankful to be alive.

Spilling the beans

2007-01-25T16:57:00.000+08:00

Can you keep a secret? How long will it take you to explode? Are you the trustworthy type who knows how to keep your mouth shut or are you the blabber mouth who itches to tell the next available person?

I wouldn’t call myself a saint but I can be pretty good at keeping secrets. I do set standards for secrets - if it means hurting a friend, forget it. But if no one is going to suffer, then I might not be quite so discreet. If someone specifically tells me “This is a secret. Please don’t tell anyone”, I will respect that person’s wishes. It’s those juicy gossips that I find quite hard to resist :). I guess that’s normal for girls. But don’t be surprised; nowadays guys are into gossiping too, no?

It’s also normal that we trust our friends at different levels. Not all the close friends will know a particular secret. It depends on how personal the secret is and how open the friend may be. If the secret is huge and you are the only one told about it, the burden can be too much to bear. There’s that sense of suspense and excitement and you feel you have to share it with another person, just so that you can discuss about it. The tension can be so high that sometimes you even wish you didn't know about the secret in the first place. But on the other hand, it’s actually quite an honor to be the only one entrusted with the information. So better not breach that trust.

Don’t be disheartened if you are not told about something or you were only told about it at a later stage. There’s always a reason for things. Understand that your friend was probably in a tough situation at the time. Maybe there wasn’t a right moment or they weren’t ready or were trying to find the right words to tell you. So relax and don’t pressure.

Yes, we all know that a secret means not telling anyone but do remember that some secrets are good and some can be bad. Be smart to know which ones are worth telling people about.

The long lost poem

2007-01-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

I found this poem while cleaning up the other day. Something I wrote about a friend many, many moons ago. She had some problem in her life back then and it was sad seeing how difficult it was for her. We have lost touch with each other and I have no clue where she is now. I hope she has found her happiness and that her troubles have gone away.

As you can see I’m not an expert writer. It was just an attempt to express my feelings. Sounds childish, I agree...but like I said, I did it a gazillion years ago.

She felt trapped
She wanted to leave
No matter what she did
Her mind wasn’t at ease

When will it stop?
She often asks
The clock is ticking
She needs to move fast

People keep talking
Oh, shut up, she says
Mind your own business
Just buzz off, go away!

She wants to be happy
She wants to be free
Be patient, I told her
The time will come, you’ll see

No matter how bad
Or unfair the world may seem
You still have your family
Who loves you dearly

I wish her the best
I pray she’ll succeed
No matter what happens
Her friend, I’ll forever be

Ada ka patut?

2007-01-15T10:49:00.000+08:00

I was visiting a friend’s blog the other day and read the comments section at one of her entries. I already left a comment earlier and thought I’d just read the updates for the day. There was this particular person who kept leaving comments and to my surprise this wacko referred to me as a pornstar!!! What irritated me was that I don’t even know him/her and don’t think he/she knows me too. And I never did say anything to upset the person. So I guess this person is just trying to be smart and called me a pornstar just because my nickname is Trueblue? *Grrrrrr*

I know I shouldn’t be bothered with these silly games. I did ignore the person but over the weekend when I remembered the incident, I couldn’t help but feel annoyed again. It puzzles me that some people have nothing better to do but try to provoke others….at random. My sympathies really….

Hello..hello

2007-01-08T09:26:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am back already. Yes, I have started work but no, I have not had time to blog yet. Been busy catching up with some work stuff. Will write more once the time permits.

Anyway, hope its not too late to wish everyone a very Happy New Year. Don't have much of a new year resolution. Thought I'd keep it simple this year. Don't want to be too ambitious.

God..I feel so malas to work..Helpppppppppppp....

Trueblue's holiday mood

2006-12-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

Why is it do we complain when we have so much work to do BUT on the other hand we whine when we have absolutely nothing to do? Yup, that’s my jackpot question today. I haven’t been doing anything productive for the past 2 days and now I am so bored to the point that I could just cry.

The thing is I’m not exactly searching proactively for things to do either. Tell my boss that I’m free and please assign me some work? Are you kidding? Who on earth would want to do that? Maybe those goody two shoes people out there but not me. Right now, I’m so not in the mood to voluntarily do any work. I’m bored and sleepy because I have no work but I don’t want to openly admit that to my boss either. So what else is there to do but just sit quietly at my cubicle, check emails, read some articles and surf the net.

I think December is really a bad month to work because people are already in their holiday mood. It’s the month where people want to finish off their annual leave. Not many people are in the office at the moment and the ones that are around are just finding the strength to make it through the day. I guess I do have some work but it requires deep thinking and so help me God, I just don’t have the energy to do that right now.

The immediate word that comes to mind is REST. It’s been a hectic year. I am physically and mentally tired. Not to mention bored with the same routine. My long awaited break is coming soon. I’ll be on leave starting the 14th (Thursday) until the New Year. So friends, surely you can understand why I just can’t be bothered this week? :)

I have one more day to go and then it’s Freedommmmmmm!!!!!!!!!

Hope you guys have a good break too. Enjoy your Christmas, New Year and Aidal Adha holidays.

I might still blog during the holidays if I’m up to it.

Take care folks and be good.

I like them clean

2006-12-06T18:54:00.000+08:00

One of the good things about working in this building is that we always have clean toilets. And that to me is very important. The cleaners come about three times a day which is actually quite good. Keep them toilets clean, I say…

Once in a while we do get *shock-shock, horror-horror* moments. Imagine rushing to the toilet (you’ve been holding it for quite some time). You expect to just barge in and do your business. But wait, you can’t do so because *surprise*, there’s crap floating in the toilet bowl. I don’t know why and how people can forget to flush toilets. Just because the toilets have sensors doesn’t simply mean you can just wipe off your ass, pull up your pants and walk off. There should be a flush sound once you stand up so if there isn’t, you should know there’s something wrong. It doesn’t take more than 2 seconds to just turn and check if the sensor is working, right? If you’ve done your business and just realized that you can’t flush the toilet, then you are basically in deep shit. We can’t really blame you there BUT, at least have the courtesy to put a sign on the door and say “Toilet not working. Do not enter”..or something to that effect. At least we are forewarned about it and don’t get caught in surprise.

Coming back to the cleaners… they’re mostly from Indonesia. The ladies are nice and a friendly bunch. There’s this particular cleaner who I think is either a very happy person or really likes her job. Every time she comes to clean the toilets, she never fails to sing. And I tell you, she’ll really sing her heart out. It’s rather loud too. We are at our workstation and we can here her sing some Indo songs. The first time we kind of laughed about it but after 3, 4 times it got irritating. It is a distraction especially during the times when we’re really trying to concentrate. This is an office for goodness sake. It would be fine if she’s got a great voice and it’s a popular song but seriously…..even my 3 year old kid can sing better. I couldn’t stand it one day and asked her “Awak memang suka nyanyi ke?”. She replied “Ohhh..Bila sendirian, saya suka nyanyi, kak”. Well, that doesn’t mean she can sing so loud, right? *shhheeesshhh*

Anyway people, always keep your toilet clean. A filthy toilet makes you feel horrible. Just imagine those germs spreading around. Yuckadoo......

He's cute! :)

2006-11-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

I just found out that one of our local actor lives in the same apartment building with me. He used to be quite popular a few years back but I guess with all these new young actors pouring into the industry, he has kind of mellowed down a bit. You can still catch him in some dramas or movies but I think lately he’s been more involved in producing dramas.

I was never really bothered about him before. As a matter of fact the feeling was more of ‘menyampah/boring’ to watch him on TV. I can’t remember why I felt that actually :). Anyway, I first noticed him a few months back at the parking lot of my apartment building and I was like “Hey….XXXX lives here too!”. We took the same lift and that was the first time I saw him closed-up. We just smiled and nodded at each other. That whole time in the lift I was thinking “eh..cute jugak mamat ni”. I wonder why I never realised it before.

I bumped into him a couple of times after that and it was still at the parking lot. Our ‘interaction’ developed from just a smile to a ‘Hi’. I have to admit, it was kind of exciting. The thrill was just like meeting a Hollywood star!! Oh well, since I can’t meet those Hollywood stars, I guess bumping into local stars is good enough already. Plus, he’s also cute! :) But don’t worry, its not that I have a major crush on him. Just for fun-fun only ok? :) So don’t you guys get any wrong ideas.

Anyway, speaking of crushes, during my younger days I used to have a major crush on Keanu Reeves. This was the time when he acted in ‘Speed’. I was so obsessed with the movie. I couldn’t even concentrate in class because every time I look at my teacher, I’ll see his face instead. In fact any guy I bump into, I would see Keanu. I would remember certain scenes from the movie and smile to myself. Later on after that I became fixated with the movie: ‘Legends of the fall’. And of course who better to be obsessed about than Brad Pitt. *drool*drool*. I had this huge poster of him in my room. Every time before going to bed, I would never forget to give him a goodnight kiss (of course I was just kissing the poster). I couldn't stop talking about the movie/him. I bet my friends got bored with me. I even had fights with my then boyfriend because he was so jealous of Brad Pitt!

Funny how we used to do these silly things when we were young, huh? Thank God I’m more matured now and don’t get obsessed with actors anymore. But one true fact remains: Brad Pitt is still hot!!

coughcough*..and memories of BTU Batch 9

2006-11-22T10:58:00.000+08:00

My damn cough is back again. It puzzles me why every few months or so I’ll keep getting the same illness. It’s bloody irritating and tiring. Irritating because my throat feels so itchy that I feel like scrubbing it with berus dawai. Tiring because I can’t sleep at night due to the constant coughing (and you know how cranky I get when I don’t get enough sleep). And I’m pretty sure my officemates find it irritating too. Not only do they have to endure the ‘noise’ but risk being infected with germs that I’m spreading around. I’m trying to refrain myself from talking too much. I realized that the talking aggravates the coughing which leads to the never-ending coughing. *sigh*

Anyway, on an unrelated matter, last night I felt like going down memory lane and look back at old photos. These were photos with my scholar mates during the A-Level years in the UK. Gosh..we looked so young and innocent! I really miss those times. Flipping through the album, I couldn’t help but smile remembering all the memories. We were a pretty close bunch..all 20 of us (guys and girls). We loved to do everything together. Even though we went to different schools, we still kept in touch by writing each other letters/cards. The best time was when we met up in London during the weekends or holidays. We’d go ice-skating, hang-out at Hyde Park, roller-blade, watch movies, go sight-seeing, shopping, have our meals at the Malaysia Hall cafeteria, Mawar restaurant,etc..We just wanted to spend as much time together because we know things will be different when we go back to school. Since our families were way back in Malaysia, the bond that we had kept us strong and this made us not miss home too much.

But of course things kind of changed when we entered University and some of us started having relationships. We were busy with our studies and didn’t have as much time to hang out with each other. The gang kind of split and some of us just kept in touch with smaller groups. It’s even worse now that most of us are married and some don’t even work with the same company anymore. We still try to keep in touch as much as we can but we know we can’t have that same bond we used to have before. I guess that’s ok and understandable. Whatever it is, our memories together will still remain. And when I feel like reminiscing the old times, I’ll just go flip through them old albums. :)

What can I say?

2006-11-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

When the cat’s away, the mice will play.

It’s very rare to get all the bosses away from the office.

This is what’s happening for the next two days and let me tell you the exact feeling…

“Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!”

You can’t blame us for enjoying the moment, right? :)

What would you do?

Cerita-ceriti

2006-11-09T08:45:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.

It’s been quite some time since I last posted an entry. Been too busy with work and couldn’t find a time to squeeze in some stories. Haven’t even had the time to read other blogs. No wonder my life feels kind of empty lately. Hehe..Like real je.

So what stories shall I share today?

1.
Oh yes.. How can I forget about my dream last night? Nope, it wasn’t a wet dream or anything like that. No x-rated stories for you today. :) Anyway, I dreamt I was like Sydney Bristow (from Alias) and was in a fight with this bad, evil woman who in real life happens to be this person that most people around here are not quite fond of. So you can imagine how exciting it was for me to be able to kick her ass. It was so cool seeing myself doing all these kicks and punches…flying up in the air with all the acrobatic moves. Wow..I was so impressed with myself. And of course being the heroin of the story, I won! Now that’s what I call a kick ass dream.

2.

I’ve been getting comments about being fat. The exact words being said are “you ni gemuklah”. Usually I don’t bother but when certain comments are repeatedly mentioned, you can’t help but start to wonder “how fat have I become?”. And of course, being human it sometimes does get to you. I know I’m no supermodel and don’t have that oh-so gorgeous figure that guys drool over but really, am I that fat? I mean, how fat? What are they comparing me against? To whom? What period? Before I was married? Before I had a baby? 1 year ago? 10 days ago? Ok, maybe I have put on a bit of weight after I had a baby but does that mean I’m fat? How fat is fat? I did calculate my BMI (Body Mass Index) and it does say that I’m still within the normal range. Maybe they’re just joking but surely there are some better jokes to tell. I certainly don’t say these things so I guess I don’t expect other people to say it to me. I mean I would never say out right to a person “you gemuklah”, friend or no friend. No matter how close. Not if it’s a joke and even if its true. If we say it out of concern for the person’s health, that’s a different story but even so, there’s still a nice way of saying it. Some things are better left unsaid, right? You guys may think I’m being overly sensitive about this but to me all of this is just common sense. Oh well, even if I am fat, what’s it to you?

We’re moving into the 2nd year of this newly-formed department and not much things have changed. Big boss is still at his crazy ways, being indecisive; keep changing directions, giving unnecessary remarks etc. We are really not motivated and it’s shocking that he has not noticed this. Or maybe he has and he’s just not bothered about it. Countless hints have been given, some have even openly provided feedback to him but still he doesn’t seem to care. We like our work but it’s just him we find hard to have chemistry with. Assignments get done, we work our asses off but its done out of loyalty to the department, to the other colleagues but not to him. It’s very common to hear the staff letting out their frustration and anger about him and this happens every day at the office without fail. Not really a good working environment to work at, huh? What else is there to do…either be patient about it and tolerate all the nonsense or start planning our next move now. As it is, we’re just taking it one day at a time, making best of what we have. Thank God I have great friends around me. Even with all the countless bitching, there’s still some laughter to share around. I guess that’s what keeps us strong each day.

Wish I had more time to write but I got to start work. Hope you’ll have a jolly good day.
Take care, you guys….

Those 5 things..

2006-11-02T09:22:00.000+08:00

Alas, this is the long over-due tag that NZN has been bugging me to complete. Sorry babe, it took so long. Anyway, here goes....

5 things I would do if I were a millionaire.
Frankly speaking, I cannot imagine myself being a millionaire so its kind of hard to imagine what I would do with it. Besides the obvious shopping spree that I might get into, I guess the other 4 things would be:
- Quit my job. No more stressful work
- Invest in properties. Must get more money, right?
- Be involved in charity work
- Donate to the needy

5 bad habits
- I eat when I’m bored or stressed.
- I bite my nails when I’m really nervous
- I tend to procrastinate
- I can be overly-worried about things that other people may think is petty
- I find it hard to say ‘no’. (Cepat kesian kat orang)

5 things I hate doing
- Having to be a ‘hypocrite’ to people I don’t like. I’d rather just avoid them
- Waiting for people
- Shopping at crowded places.
- Having to present something when I’m not prepared for it
- Rush into things

5 things I will never do
- Suck up to bosses
- Become a bully
- Cut my hair short
- Pose naked in magazines (hihi!)
- Do a Brazilian wax (yikes!)

5 things I regret doing
- The only thing I can think of right now is I regret not studying extra hard during my Uni days. I could have done better

5 favourite toys or things
- my handphone
- my newly bought camera (bought a day before raya!)
- my book collection. I love reading!
- my necklace & bracelet
- my car

Sekian, Terima Kasih. I can finally close this chapter. *phew*

Back already?

2006-10-30T08:37:00.000+08:00

Today is my first day in the office after about 10 days of Hari Raya leave. I’m still not sure whether it feels good to be back at work. For one thing, it’s great because I can slow down on stuffing myself with god-knows all sorts of food. I think I must have put back on a kilo or two. Waaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! So much for losing some weight during the fasting month, huh?

On the other hand, am also not looking forward to start back the routine of long discussions, meeting the bosses, you know..those boring work stuff. Its 8.15 am now and I can already imagine the pile of work that’s coming for this week. *groan*

Oh well…we can’t win everything, right? I am just going to take it slow today. Surely the boss would understand that most of us are still in the raya mood. Eh, come to think of it, boss will only be back to work on Wednesday. Yey…I have 2 extra days to enjoy myself. Ok, mission for the next two days is to ‘look like busy’.

Happy working everyone…or for some of us, berlakon jelah….Hihi!!

Raya wishes

2006-10-18T14:51:00.000+08:00

I don’t think I’ll be updating this blog till after the raya holidays.

So, I would like to take this opportunity to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Do forgive me if there are any wrong-doings. If you’re driving back to your kampung, do drive carefully. No need to speed lah. Kampung tu tak lari punya.

Have a great holiday, you all and enjoy the long break.

Take care and be good.

See you in 10 days time.

*hugs*hugs*kiss*kiss

Note to NZN:
Beb, I’ll do your tag after raya ok? :)

Sometimes...

2006-10-16T10:22:00.000+08:00

...we search too hard for answers that are right in front of us.

Go away, haze!!

2006-10-09T11:02:00.000+08:00

I went to work this morning and I thought “Woah!!! Aku kat London ke ni??!!”. Nampak very misty, ala-ala masa musim sejuk. Yeah right, Trueblue..Its the haze!!

The situation is still bad. I couldn’t see much. The tall buildings were out of sight. When’s this haze problem going to end? *sigh*. The weather was kind of ok on Saturday but shifting winds brought back the haze yesterday.

We can’t even walk freely outdoors now. Hospitals and clinics are full of patients with health problems due to the haze. I’ve been sick for the past 2 weeks. Been coughing like crazy. My chest hurts. My stomach hurts.

It’s so depressing looking at the weather. Not only is it a health hazard but also an additional burden for Muslims during this holy month of Ramadhan. They say, ‘drink lots of water during the haze’. Hmm... we can’t exactly do that, can we?

Oh well…it’s raining now (yeah!). I hope this helps settle the haze a bit. Until all is well, let’s just stay indoors for the time being. Take care everyone!

A belated wish....

2006-10-02T10:47:00.000+08:00

Oooppss!! We missed the date.

Too busy with work that we forgot all about it.

Happy Belated Birthday to Friendshipbabes who turned 1 on 28 September 2006.

Who would have thought we made it this far.

The other bloggermates are a bit busy now to contribute but they will do so once they can. Don’t worry, they haven’t forgotten about you. :) In the mean time, I’ll be around to keep you alive.

So Happy Belated Birthday, Friendshipbabes. Here's hoping there'll be more birthdays to come :)

Enough already!

2006-09-26T10:23:00.000+08:00

I have been doing something irritating for the past 3 days and it happens at the exact same time during sahur. Without realizing, while eating, my mind starts to sing “Saya anak Malaysia”. Don’t ask me why it’s that song. I have no idea. But one thing’s for sure..it’s really driving me nuts!!

No, I don’t have anything against that song or the singer. But, having to hear myself singing it throughout sahur time, isn’t exactly what I call a jolly good time, don’t you think?

The weird thing is I can’t control it. It comes out of the blue. Tengah sedap mengunyah, suddenly a voice from inside my head starts to sing..
“Saya anak Malaysia
Saayaaaaaaa…anak Malaysia
Saya anak Malaysia
Saayaaaa..anak Malaysia”

And it goes on and on and on. Arghhhhhhhhhh…Enough already. Let me eat in peace!

Now that I think about it, it’s actually quite creepy. Why the song? And why do I have to sing? Hmm..maybe its one of those Misteri Nusantara things. Yikes!

I miss you...

2006-09-20T13:02:00.000+08:00

I don’t know why but I thought about you today.

You’ve been gone for 2 years now but I still think about you from time to time.

Why did you go? Did I do something wrong? Did we do something wrong? You left just like that. Do you have any idea how worried I was? God, just thinking about it makes me so angry. Its not fair....You left without saying goodbye.

I miss you.

I miss our alone time together. I can talk to you about anything. You were such a great listener. We had a special connection. When I touched you and we looked into each other’s eyes, its a silent way of saying "I love you for who you are". You didn’t have to say anything. Your presence alone has always been very comforting.

But you left. Why?

Were you dying and didn’t want me to see or feel the pain? You should know me better. I would have taken care of you.

My mind has been going round and round thinking about what happened to you.

I have learnt to accept the fact that you are not here with me. But it doesnt mean that I have stopped thinking about you. I’ll always treasure our good times together.

Where ever you are, I hope you are happy. I also hope that you have been thinking about me.

I love you, Miaow...

Yes, my friends. In case you are wondering, Miaow is my beloved cat who suddenly dissapeared 2 years ago. And today, I just miss her like crazy.

The day Trueblue felt like a zombie

2006-09-14T14:38:00.000+08:00

I can’t remember the last time I really, really, really had a good sleep. Oh wait....give me a few more minutes to think about this... Ahhh, yes...maybe it was the time the girls and I went to the spa at Plaza Sri Damas. Yeah, that was it. I remembered coming back home and had the best nap ever. I woke up feeling fresh and rejuvenated! But hey, that was way back in January. So long ago maaaaaaaahhh...

These past few days I have been having trouble sleeping. Maybe I’ve been thinking too much about things like the ever increasing workload coming in and a few other stuffs. The other night I even had a scary dream and woke up whimpering. I couldn’t sleep back after that. I have been tired and exhausted but I guess not tired enough to just simply fall asleep. I hate it when this happens. My body says ‘go to sleep’ but my eyes just doesn’t want to shut. Urghhh...

Usually I have to read a book to make me fall asleep. But last night it just didn’t work. I was half way through my story book and still wasn’t sleepy. Thought I should watch tv but just wasn’t in the mood. I didn’t know what else to do. I ended up just staring at the ceiling until my eyes got tired. I think I finally dozed off about 4am. My alarm clock rang at 6.15am and I didn’t have the energy to wake up and go to the office. And now I feel like a zombie. Been yawning every 5 minutes.

A straight 6-8 hours sleep without any interference is what I would call a great sleep. I am a light sleeper. Once there is a distruption, I will have a tough time to fall back asleep again. Unless I am really, really tiredlah. Thats why I really value my sleeping hours. I’ll get cranky when I don’t have enough sleep.

Maybe I just need to make it a habit of visiting the spa. I guess my body is aching for a good massage. I should book a time before the fasting month.

Can't wait :)

Giggle giggle

2006-09-12T08:35:00.000+08:00

Juggling 4 projects at one time with Big Boss breathing down your neck every other day or so isn’t exactly what I call a fun time. With the many things going on, I got pretty annoyed when Boss asked me to attend a presentation which wasn’t top priority at the time.

It was Friday evening and I was looking forward to just taking my own time to finish off what’s left of the week. True enough, I wasn’t able to give my full attention. I just couldn't be bothered. I was amazed to see Jehan (who sat beside me) listening attentively. Gosh Jehan, how do you do it?

After about 10 minutes, I got bored and started passing notes to Jehan.

Me: I’m bored
Jehan: Me too
(Hah! Berlakon rupanya dia..)
Me: I’m not even listening to him. What the hell is he on about? Why can’t I concentrate?

Jehan: Its ok. Just imagine that he’s Ricky Martin singing "Livin La Vida Loca".

*giggle giggle*

We went back to listening to the guy.

5 minutes later.....

Me: Eh, you notice tak dia cakap sambil tutup mata?
Jehan pinched me and we *giggled-giggled*

Jehan: A’ahla...Why la like that?
Me: Maybe he needs to imagine what he’s talking about...

Both of us looked back at him and *giggled-giggled*

We ended up not being able to look at the presenter for fear of bursting into laughter. It was quite hard to control and be discreet about it as there were only 5 of us in the meeting. I know its bad to laugh at people but we couldn't help it. The guy is ok when he talks normally but everytime he starts presenting, he’ll close his eyes like every 2 sentences. It was as if he was trying to picture his words. And he looked so passionate while doing it. I don’t know, to me it felt really weird. It was really distracting my attention.

Boss gave us a nasty stare and had the look as if saying:"What are you girls laughing at??". Seeing how boring the whole presentation was, I bet Boss was just jealous and secretly wishing "I also want to join the fun". I know you, Boss..you don’t have to pretend....

Well, serves him right for asking me to attend the presentation.

*giggle giggle*

A thought to ponder

2006-09-08T11:02:00.000+08:00

"Its better not to care too much or you might end up getting hurt."

What say you?

Attention all shoppers....

2006-09-04T17:23:00.000+08:00

What’s up with people who cannot understand simple rules and instructions?

I believe the signage is very clear:

"Express counter: Only for 10 items and below"

But nooooo....some shoppers act as if its their own supermarket. Buat perangai sesuka hati and queue up at the counter with their shopping cart full of stuff!! Of course, me being me, always try to think good things of people..I told myself.. "maybe she didnt notice the signage". So, I say nicely and pointed to the signage "excuse me, this counter is only for 10 items and below". And what did she reply? Nothing. She just looked at me from top to bottom and simply turned away. Aikk?? What the toot is this? Sungguh kurang sopan. Am I that non-existant? I was close to strangling her!

Hey, I know the other normal counters have longer queues but too badlah. It doesn’t mean you can simply queue at the special counters. They built that counter for a reason...you dingbat!

I don’t know, what do you think? Should we add on more details to the signage like "Please, please..we beg you..this counter is only for shoppers who are in a hurry. Please be considerate.... Either follow the rules or we’re gonna kick your ass!!".

*Trueblue rolls her eyes big time*

At wits end!

2006-08-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

How do you manage bosses who cannot make up their minds and keep changing directions?

Don’t these bosses know they are driving us (the gundus) crazy??!!

I am: Frustrated..Stressed..Tired..

I need a long break...Hmmm..Wonder when will that be...

Its Friday evening but I feel like crap.

I had a dream..

2006-08-22T18:25:00.000+08:00

Last night I dreamt I entered a beauty pageant. Ala-ala Miss Universe gitu...Haha..Don’t ask me why I dreamt that. Not that I’m even close to having the looks/height/talent to enter such a contest. Maybe it was a childhood dream yang tak kesampaian...Hihihi..

But in the dream, I memang terror gilalah. Terror to the point I was in the top 5!! (Haha..maybe I was the best amongst the worst). Anyway, everything went really well. Everything was superb. People were cheering and I could here them screaming "Miss Malaysia!!! Miss Malaysia!! Yeah!!!! Yeah!! ". *sigh* what a feeling that was :)

Before they announced the winners, the top 5 contestants (including yours truly) had to walk down these flight of stairs. We were all smiles, giving that typical Miss Universe wave to the audience. I was truly enjoying my moment until suddenly my dress got stuck on my heels. Apa lagi...Terguling-guling aku jatuh kat tangga tu. *Gedebuk..gedebuk...gedebuk...*. There was total silence after that. I guess everyone was in shock! Oh..the humiliation.......

Thank God it was a dream. I don’t think I can face another embarassing moment.

But what do you think the dream meant? Anyone good in interpreting dreams?

Beautician at Pasar Malam

2006-08-17T16:15:00.000+08:00

Was at the pasar malam the other day and noticed this makcik selling cosmetic/make-up products.

What I found bizzare was that not only did she sell the typical pasar malam level brands, but also SKII products. And it looked like she almost had the complete set! Fuiyoo..terror makcik ni.

I didn’t take a closer look but from a glance, it kind of looked exactly the same as the ones sold at any beauty counters in Department stores (ie: Isetan, Parkson etc). Am not sure how much it costs but can guarantee it would be very much cheaper. If not, tak payah susah-susah jual kat pasar malam. Ye tak?

This whole thing made me laugh because the makcik wore something very ‘sempoi’, ie: just a tshirt and kain batik. No need to have a flawless face or have that professional image like the beauticians do. I wonder what her marketing strategy was...It was even funnier when she screamed out "Mari, mari....beli mekap..".

Anyway, no matter how much cheaper it may be, I don’t think I even want to try. Too risky. What if jerawat batu come out from my face? Errrk...I’ll just dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee................

Not so good Monday morning

2006-08-14T12:24:00.000+08:00

They say its rude to stare. I agree but what if its a situation that you feel doesn’t make sense and totally out of your mind?

I was walking around one of the shopping malls in KL and passed by a family (parents with 3 kids) crowding around a dustbin. I was curious to what was going on and decided to take a closer look. What I saw amazed me and couldn’t help but stare with utter disbelief.

The father was holding an empty bottle (I assumed he took it from the bin). The mother was squating whilst taking off her son’s pants. They were trying to get their son to piss in the bottle! Can you believe it? Why oh why? Can’t they just walk to the toilet which is like 2 minutes away? What were they thinking of doing...Throw the bottle filled with their son’s piss back in the bin? Yucks...What kind of values are they trying to teach their kid? I mean I understand if they’re stranded at some remote area but this is a shopping mall...there’s bound to be toilets at every level. Gosh..I couldn’t believe my eyes. I left feeling disgusted. Now that was 2 minutes of my life wasted!

On an unrelated matter, I came to the office this morning and saw that my mug was moved from its normal place at my desk. Not only that, the mug was dirty with remnants of nescafe or milo..I distinctively remember not making any drinks last Friday and left my mug at its usual place before I left the office. Eh..pleaselah, if you wanna make coffee, use lah the mugs at the pantry..don’t go using people’s personal mugs from the workstation. And if you’re really that desperate to drink, at least have the decency to wash the mug! Urghh..pagi-pagi nak buat Trueblue marah....

a feeling of total helpless- ness

2006-08-10T06:27:00.000+08:00

i know this is not such a popular topic..but i dont give a damn, this is my blog and i can blog what ever i want...except slander on the government and the administration la (takut)...and dont give a hoot if no one comments..anyways sometimes you got to think and write of the stuff no one likes to read..

well its the war and plight at lebanon and palestine...more at lebanon actually. yesterday in the midst of me being busy at work and doing new biz venture...i suddenlys stop doing my work and started to read all the news on the killings of our m* friends. The worst is...nobody with any power an money is doing anything...the atrocities by the regime is accepted...probly celebrated by some. And what happen to the bill m* all over the world? Especially the Ar*...I feel hopeless and helpless and currently the people of our religion is the worst lot, the most pathethic the most weak. WHy?..we are the lucky ones,the chosen ones in fact...the one on the right path,...So why have we not rise above the rest tlike we should like our religion wants us to ?...

War is a sensitive issues...but what is going on here...we do nothing?....and then what?..afghan,iraq,pales,lebanon ...what next?..theres more to come if something huge and drastic doesnt change...arab league...oic..?...why dont they just bubar themselves.and go sit in a corner ...and the UN is the biggest joke of all..theres only one power there..the Am and the J. Veto power has got to end.

So ...if we read times of old...and stories of wars during our prophets time...cant help waiting fot a huge miracle of god to save these people as their saudaras from all over..near or far is not doing anything...or could not.

So what can we do?..anything is better than nothing...of course a prayer is always a good start...but does it stop there...i believe there was a few more elements in tawakal besides doa.

street demoes...well so far what is the result...a big nothing

It all boils down to money and power...the m* world can cripple the US economy ...we can do something collectively..unfortunately the arabs best and loyal friend is the american...so thats a nono. Oil rich countries are muslim countries...so whats going on here?.

Basically i need to vent my frustration on this...dont really have a clue what can be done....all im doing is praying for a huge miracle from god...which probly god is not appreciating as besides that .what else are we doing.nothing?

Its easy not too bother actually...esp in my busy and hectic life...but really its not..its tdifficult to be oblivious when you just cant believe its been going on for so long and no one has succeeded in doing anything.../Is* occupation in the middle east has got to stop once and for all...perhaps they can move to another deserted islanf=d somewhere remote in the world and live by themselves...Anyone can offer their island?

soory if this is what you dont want to read..but to bad...im part owner of this blog,..so give me somewhere to vent my frustration...lainla kalau i pm ke...un ambassador ke...oic president ke...the arab king ke...boleh la i ckp in that forum...which would be better than this!

Please.....

2006-08-08T15:39:00.000+08:00

...this is too hard...

Can't fight the feeling anymore

I'm tired

I'm sleepy

Had too much to eat

I wanna sleep......

....and dream of good things.................

Just five minutes will do....

*Trueblue dozing off*

....Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

don't cha

2006-08-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

i'm not sure whether today is going to be my last day at the office. my due date is next sunday and tomorrow is my appointment to see my gynae. everyone at the office told me that i should be on mc the whole of next week. okay la, i try to ask for mc tomorrow. i have a bigger issue to think about besides than asking for mc. he wants to do an internal exam on me tomorrow, not quite sure what does that mean. according to NEAJ, she never experience that kind of internal exam (the one where docs and nurses poke their fingers to see how dilated u are) from him so i'm feeling ok today after days of fretting how does it feel to be poked there. unless, NEAJ says; i'm already in labour.

i wish i never have to go thru all this birthing process but it's way too late for me now.. some old school advise me against taking epidural but THAT equals to having ur root canal procedure without drugs.

between bouts of continous tummy pain and lower back ache, i have spoof another song. my bosses have taken off all assignment from me so all i do now is monitoring news. besides, there's a new staff (a girl) in our dept for them to tinker with.

(mrsjones)
u know i want it (u know i want it)
i know u do (i know u do)
thats why whenever i whine to you
ur nurse say we should induce you...
and u know i want it (u know i want it)
it's easy to see (it's easy to see)
and u tell me my cervix not dilated
go back to your room and practise breathing
aarggghhh....

(my gynae)
dont cha wish ur labour pain-free happy ?
dont cha wish i dont give u episiotomy ?
dont cha.. dont cha..
dont cha wish ur contractions short and sweet ?
dont cha wish u can have ur epi early ?
dont cha..dont cha...

national anthem for my labour

2006-07-31T17:26:00.000+08:00

my contraction brings all labour pain to the yard
i'm like, screaming my lungs out
darn right, gimme all your drugs now..
gynae can epi me but he has to charge..

u know i want it
the drug that soothes me
what the moms go crazy for
they lose their minds
the way we whine
i know it's time

la la la la la..
jab me up
la la la la la..
this mum is waiting

my gynae will be amused..

Its madness..madness, I tell you...!!!

2006-07-24T08:56:00.000+08:00

Get ready, folks..

Well, maybe not all folks but more of those crazy shoppers out there..

Apparently today is the spectacular 3 hour sale at Suria KLCC from 6pm to 9pm.

For me personally, don’t think I’m pretty bothered about the whole hoo-haa. You know how I hate crowded places and have no patience to queue and all that stuff. Can’t imagine how the commotion is going to be. Just 3 hours to get good bargains? Gosh..people will go hunting crazy. As long as people are civilised and be considerate about the other shoppers, then things should be ok...I hope..

But maybe it won’t be that bad because people will be going to different outlets. I read from the paper that more than 100 retailers will be participating in this special sale. So, I guess all shoppers won’t be glued to one particular shop. Anyway, here’s some info of the participating outlets offering those great bargains:
1. Bally: Additional 5% off on markdown items
2. Emporio Armani: Additional 10% off selected items
3. Habib Jewels: 60-65% off selected rings, earing and brooches
4. Ombak: 30% off storewide
5. Red Earth: 50% off all skincare products
6. Crabtree & Evelyn: 20% off normal priced items

Well, if you wanna know more you can check it out at Suria KLCC later.

So, to those shopper lovers..get ready to shop like never before!

P/S: If you're going and for some bizarre miracle I should change my mind..I might just bump into you. We'll see :)

Need a hug?

2006-07-19T14:51:00.002+08:00

*Hugsssssssss*

Don’t you just love it?

Hugging has a way of bringing a sense of togetherness and belonging.

You do it when you’re happy, you do it when you’re sad. .

It can relieve pain and deppression..It feels good and overcomes fear...It makes happy days happier and impossible days possible.

Sometimes if you want to comfort a friend but you dont know what to say, just go give them a hug. I think its a silent way of saying "everything will be ok" or "I’m here for you".

Or..if something great happened, hugging is a way of saying "I’m so happy for you!!"

According to Kathleen Keating, R.A., M.N., author of The Hug Therapy Book, hugs take many forms depending on what you want to communicate. A few examples include:

The Bear Hug--ideal for two individuals of disproportionate sizes and for saying, "You're terrific," or "You can count on me".
The A-Frame--Brief embrace ideal for little-known relatives and situations requiring a bit of formality. All of the hugging takes place above the neck. This hug communicates polite caring or detached warmth. Great for new huggers.
The Cheek Hug--A tender hug that can be executed sitting or standing. This hug says "I'm sorry you're disappointed," or is ideal to share joy or greet an elderly relative.
The Group Hug--Great for good friends sharing an activity or project. Group hugs communicate support, security, affection, unity and universal belonging.

The nicest thing about a hug is that you usually can’t give one without getting one.

So..go on..what are you waiting for? Go give someone a hug...

P/S: But don’t la go peluk-peluk people without reason..nanti kena penampar pulak :)

surprise surprise

2006-07-18T06:26:00.000+08:00

2 post within a few days...my my thats a first I would say! I was very much entertained with all your post...the booby thingy,post wc romance,pacar, gss (altho I never found it great!...blame it on my supposed twisted national spirit of spending in malaysia and not in spore!!).

So happens was in spore recently , i think during the cold play concert. Just one day of a mega family gathering and kenduri at the grandma in laws house. It was ok..kids enjoyed it...Altho did not venture into any shops..I dont know what is it about me and singapore...it never struck me as a place to shop2..except for nice photo albums. I guess its could not be categorised as a holiday induce irational shopping as i dont consider it a holiday destination more like a kampung cos gor rallies there and cant be shopping like in msia cos always too short a time and not familiar...perhaps i would attempt to try it again one day!!

HOliday induced shopping...(irational) sometimes is a syndrome that i have faced all the time im on a holiday esp overseas...the urge to shop is many2 time greater altho sometimes there isnt really that many things to buy or its too expensive..Basically...the mood is better buy now nak sampai lagi sekali payah.takut menyesal..thats what i said about a few places like uk,nz and aus..and lo and behold the same attitude applies even if it is more than 3 times!

This syndrome has resulted in outstanding cc bill post holiday and long recovery time to settle these bills...it happened in korea and i have the feeling it will happen again on the next holiday in sept unless somewhow I can find a cure or at least something to reduce the potency of the syndrome...hehehhe any suggestions?

Oh god!...when u talk about kids growing up...It just overwhelms me sometimes..mm is growing up so fast before ny very eyes...shes speaking alot now esp in english ...says a lot of new things i didnt teach her and lo and behold likes to play with boys..she actually kissed one on the cheek while saying goodbye (shocker) ...the boy happened to be the hubbies step uncles son...related (alamak..) Well it was a sweet kind of thing ..The boy about 7 made her laugh and i think this is a result of me teaching her...kakak...kiss u*...sayang u* (her adik while he was small so she would be protective and be gentle with him)... I better stop this kissing2 thing...bahaya if she likes to kiss boys pulak!! Also the act of kissing the girl cousins aunts and toks bila balik rumah everyday...PArenting 101 please?

cem2 la kakak....thats what i told her after that...she just laughed! MM is the exact opposite of mua...very soft,ladylike and loves to dress up in pink and clips all the time ...oh and handbags..where she gets it im not too sure...blame it on the barbie princess i spose. Oh well shes still my lil baby

actually from my previous post I wanted to say that i have stopped liking Y from the E&Y fame and no longer support him...only E...so thats that and aint changing my mind about it. Perhaps a closure on wat really happen would be great..CLosure is the thing for all issues.

Anywhow the MAwi and INa stories pun very interesting...esp that its making the news very often...my conclusion that he probly wanted to dump her long time ago but...the makcik made it easy for him to be the good guy and she the bad girl...excellent strategy I would say...I had the feeling that it wont last after he shot to stardom...just a matter of time..! Oh the girl wanting to model?...halo where did that come from??

gtg me darlings...to start a brand new day...hopefully with no mistakes in it!!

Ps: When is junior jones making an entry into this very troubled but beautiful world?

stories of the world that just passes you by

2006-07-14T05:57:00.000+08:00

Dont get too shocked reading the post writer...heheh...yep mua finally resurfaced to the land of the bloggers..

I was awaked by the sound of the phone indicating 3 sms...of course had to grab the phone and find out who would sms me in the middle of the nite!...halo 2.30 the phone watch says..one was a missed call sms (for a missed call at 11),one from my staff in cherating, the detail said 1130 (rajin nye) and the other from a client! On why it arrived at 2.30 instead of 11 surprises me...probly network thing kut

Well since I was awaken by the sound....i cant sleep till now...even after reading one whole trashy m&B...hehhe nothing like a love story huh....then i tried to sleep...but my darling son was tresspasing my side of the bed after he climbed up our bed from his bed or shall i say mattress to sleep in between us!!..

So head to this companion that never sleep the computer n internet..and read whole load of news I have been neglecting to read...I must say the news was bloody disturbing...even tho its still the same ol shit (SOS)

The israel and palestinian....endless war and figthing after many truces....the same road again. I use to think there is hope for peace there ...but frankly...if one of them do not suddenly decide to migrate their whole country elsewhere...the war and fighting from both side will last till the end of time..seriously!...I dont see it ever happening. To be honest, Im dissapointed in the arab world...they are weak...do not stand together and do not take care of their own..not too mention fight with each other. And the veto process in the UN...shows that UN is actually not a all a platform to take care of all...its just so unfair...sometimes i cant stop myself from hoping a great big thing happening to change the plight and situation of the m* world....and then it would be better and more equatable..

then now...israel and lebanon...terrible act by one of the party but yet no condemnation...no pressure...just whatever...after all they are a strong ally of......its so sickening and unfair...i have long decided not to care or bother...but not so easy when u read the news and see the pictures...you wonder what in the world can you do to change that situation...and the answer is...nothing much!

then the iranian nuclear thingy....oh no...not another us led invasion!...in the end the civilians, woman and children are the ones dying by the thousands...not to mention a ruined country,,,ruined economy and a ruined life for the iranians....i hope someone can see some sense soon. Right is fine and all that...but in a world where i* power is a minority and ruled by the U*...you just have to bow down and not used your rights.Especially if the lives of your countrymen is at stake...rights will be of no use once the counry and lives ruin

alamak gtg...just now my baby bangun ad then i i finally dozz off...got to go mandi head to work...to be cont ok

hhehhe

?

2006-07-12T11:35:00.000+08:00

"should i....

or

shouldn't i?"

Take it slow...

2006-07-11T09:46:00.000+08:00

I left the office quite early yesterday and arrived home to an empty apartment. It was 6.15pm and I knew my daughter, D* and the maid were at the playground. So I thought I’d go and check what she’s up to.

I wanted to surprise her so I just looked from afar. There she was at the swings section, pushing this boy on a swing. They took turns doing this and all the time were laughing and giggling and I thought "wow..she’s really having fun with this boy".

After about 10 minutes, D* looked up and saw me. I waved, she smiled, then ran towards me screaming "mamaaaaaaaa....mamaaaa.. mamaaaaaaa". My heart just melted and I have to tell you, that is truly one of the best moments in life. Anyway, while I was hugging and kissing her, I heard from a distance a boy’s voice shouting "D*, D*, D*". I didnt even have time to look where the voice was coming from because all of a sudden, the boy was already in front of me and gave the biggest grin....

Me: Ni siapa, D*?

D*: Abil

Me: Kawan D* ke?

D*: Smiled and nodded her head

My maid arrived shortly and said "Ni Nabil kak, dia suka main dengan D*. Kami selalu usik dia pacar D*". What? Pacar? No...no...no..Too young for a pacar, man........My mind started to wonder and went into automatic protective mode..who is this cheeky little boy trying to get close to my daughter?? What are his intentions? Whats his family background?

Hehe..I know, I know... they’re just friends but its kind of weird seeing how close she is with this boy. Though in some ways, it does look kind of cute. *sigh* My darling D* is growing up.

Gosh...I cannot even imagine what it’d be like when she starts having guy friends, dating and all that. I understand now how my parents used to worry a lot about me and my sister. We had a strict upbringing. No boyfriends till we entered university!

I don’t know how we’ll be like when D* enters that phase of wanting to hang out with boys. With all the crime rate thats been going on nowadays, you just want to protect them from all evil. Scary la with all these news on rape and murder..... *****Trueblue thinking***** Thats it, she’s not dating till she’s 30!!! :)

Note (1): D* is 3 years plus
Note (2): Pacar=boyfriend

my X&Y

2006-07-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

"Are you lost or incomplete?

Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?

Tell me how do you feel?

Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak

And they're talking it to me"

m doing some last minute studying..

but not 'studying' studying.. more of borrowing jim's coldplay cd, and putting it on in my bedroom..

so that in four nites' time.. during the coldplay concert in singapore... i wudnt be like a clueless fish yang tau only 3 eh 4 coldplay songs....

i like coldplay, but m not a die hard fan that i know all their songs.. and memorise all their lyrics... i like the songs 'Fix You', 'Talk', 'Speed of Sound' and 'In My Place', but that's about all that i know before this..

.. and u know what, now that m listening to their other songs.. i like their other songs too.. just that the 4 is the most frequently played on radio...

i especially like this one... called 'swallowed in the sea'

"You cut me down a tree
And brought it back to me
And that's what made me see
Where I was going wrong

You put me on a shelf
And kept me for yourself
I can only blame myself
You can only blame me

And I could write a song
A hundred miles long
Well, that's where I belong
And you belong with me

And I could write it down
Or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found
Or swallowed in the sea

You put me on a line
And hung me out to dry
And darling that's when I
Decided to go to see you

You cut me down to size
And opened up my eyes
Made me realize
What I could not see

And I could write a book
The one they'll say that
shook
The world, and then it took
It took it back from me

And I could write it down
Or spread it all around
Get lost and then get found
And you'll come back to me
Not swallowed in the sea

Ooh...And I could write a
song
A hundred miles long
Well, that's where I belong
And you belong with me

The streets you're walking on
A thousand houses long
Well, that's where I belong
And you belong with me

Oh what good is it to live
With nothing left to give
Forget but not forgive
Not loving all you see

Oh the streets you're walking on

A thousand houses long

Well that's where I belong

And you belong with me

Not swallowed in the sea

You belong with me

Not swallowed in the sea

Yeah, you belong with me

Not swallowed in the sea"

p/s : and no, i bukan nak pegi the concert just nak membazir duit, but err heard of great singapore sale?

Patience

2006-06-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

Everyone knows patience has a limit.

Yes, I am a very patient person. I seldom blow up but please don’t push me too much or you may be shocked beyond words.

Lately, I realise that my patience has been tested to the max.

To be honest, I’m tired, I’m stressed and have had enough. But so far, with God’s help, I am still able to stand strong.

I was asked by a good friend, "How do you get to be so patient?"

Its not that easy. Having the utmost patience requires mental strength.

I try not to think about it too much.

I try to think of good things...think of the good things people do. Have happy thoughts..and in some ways, it makes me calm.

Patience is all I have. I think it makes me a better person.

But I know, people may think I am weak. That’s ok. There’s a quote I hold on to..
"Patience serves as a protection against wrongs as clothes do against cold. For if you put on more clothes as the cold increases, it will have no power to hurt you. So in like manner you must grow in patience when you meet with great wrongs, and they will then be powerless to vex your mind. "
-Leornado Da Vinci-

But having said that, I still have my limits. I may be slow to anger, dislike quarelling and avoid ill-feeling but don’t go overboard because if people provoke me too much, I will explode into violent outbursts of ferocious anger. And believe me, that is not a sight you want to see :)

Picture this...

2006-06-15T10:11:00.000+08:00

A girl who rarely takes the LRT, had to do so one day. It was the rush hour of the morning. The crowd was busy and obviously there were no empty seats. She didn’t mind standing but was quite worried because at the spot that she was standing, there wasn’t a handle she could grab on, there wasn’t a bar she could hold on to or even something she could lean herself against. She prayed hard she wouldn’t fall and depended on her own two feet to balance herself.

Anyway, everything was fine the first 10 minutes until the train made a sudden turn. She immediately loss her balance. The first thing on her mind was to grab the nearest thing and that nearest thing had to be the nearest person to her. What did she do? Yes, she did grab on to a person. It could have been someone else’s hands or shoulders or arms but for some bizzare reason, her hands landed on some lady’s boobs. The lady screamed "Hoi!!" (of course shocked and thinking who is this pervert grabbing my boobs!). The girl screamed back "Oh my god..oh my god....Sorry Kak..Sorry...Saya tak sengaja". The poor girl was so embarassed, her face was red and she could feel all eyes were staring at her. Some people were actually laughing. The lady gave her this look as if saying "I’m gonna kill you!!!". Thank God the train came to a stop. It wasn’t her station but the girl went off anyway. No way was she going subject herself to futher embarassment.

Yes, ladies and gentleman. This is a true story.

Yes..the poor girl is me.

And yes..I can add this to my collection of embarassing moments.

Why oh why does this always happen to me???

football nation

2006-06-09T11:18:00.000+08:00

The World Cup is here. WC will always reminds me of the time I first met my husband. It was during World Cup season 4 years ago. It was at one of my good school friend’s birthday dinner in June 2002. The dinner fell on the night where South Korea’s played against an European team. Semi final kot and lawan Germany rasanya. Of course I couldn’t miss it. I was amazed with the way Koreans hold themselves up against big shot teams in the World Cup. That my friends, is what I called a team worth to be a Global Champion in the Global Championship thing. Pasukan Asia menentang Pasukan Eropah. So yeah of course as an Asian I felt impressed and awed with them. I often watch with interest on how they play football that current national team failed to do. Is it our physique ? Is it our technique ? Aiyoo, I leave it to the experts to rejuvenate our football scene.

So I was a bit frustrated that I can’t watch the whole match. What I did, I got ready early, watch the first half and then raced to fetch my other friend who wanted to ride with me and speed furiously to Jalan Mayang where Ye Olde Smokehouse situated which is somewhere behind Avenue K now. I was naive to expect that that kind of restaurant having a tv to accomodate football diners.

I slumped on their sofa when I found out that they don’t have a tv. I nearly cried for the wasted effort of speeding only to find there’s no tv ! Yeah, this is not a mamak establishment, what can I expect right ? Then, I realised that there’s a guy already seated in front of me but I was way too frustrated so I didn’t bother to sit like a lady but somewhere like orang kalah judi. Since he’s the guest of the birthday girl, I assumed he’s the birthday girl’s date that night.

Next thing I knew, birthday girl invited me for lepak after office hours the next day with our other friends plus him as well. After that lepak session, we exchanged our cards although I feel a bit strange cos she already had my card. So, in the end, mrjones pun dapat la jugak my card. The next day, I got an email from him saying that he wants to call me up. Me not being comfortable, agreed but I told him I can’t talk long because I was not at my own cubicle. I was working on an IT department’s improvement project so we had to share one office phone with nearly 20 people in a room. So we ended up exchanging Yahoo messenger’s ID which was so convenient cos I can think first before I write.

And that’s how we began as a couple and went on marrying each other and now creating little Jones.. Thanks to FIFA World Cup. And oh, I wish I give birth somewhere after 9th June so that I can watch these football matches during my midnight feeds..

Wanna see my grill ?
Ada jugak dentist and jeweller yang nak melayan kerenah nelly, the hip hop bling bling star. There is this one video clip of a song showed him wearing jewellery grill that when he smiles or grins, he flashes diamond. Back up singer siap singing "boy, how you get grill that way and how much did you pay hey..." Isk isk ! Tapi impressive la diamond-encrusted grill dia.. reminds me of my angan-angan - to own half or one carat solitaire diamond earrings...

every gal needs her beauty sleep..

2006-06-08T11:35:00.000+08:00

(picture of my darling nephew sleeping.. at 12-hours old...)

just realised that it's been ages since i've posted any entry in the blog... been bz runnin' here and there... and settling some stuff.... ;)

but got this in my inbox the other day... advice on sleep.... maybe can share with you guys... especially since my hours have been completely nocturnal lately.. meaning sleep only around 1-2a.m. lately... and only waking up at 8a.m. the next day... *phew* thank god it's acceptable for me to come into office at about 9ish....

.. and lullaby singer.. u know who u are.. thanks for the bedtime lullaby the other day when i cudn't sleep... i slept like a baby after...

now to that sleeping advice...

a man can go two weeks without eating. but if he doesn't rest at all, he can only survive for one week.

sleeping provides us the time to rest our internal organs, eyes and brains. poor sleep quality can cause internal damage to our internal organs and brains.

therefore, sleeping is very important to us. if you wish to have a long life and stay healthy, please take note of the advice below.

DON'T SLEEP WITH WATCHES
Watches can emit a certain level of radioactivity. Though small, but if you wear your watch to bed for a long time, it might have adverse effects on your health.
DON'T SLEEP WITH YOUR BRA
Scientists in America have discovered those that wear bras for more than 12 hours have a higher risk of getting breast cancer. So go to bed without it.
DON'T SLEEP WITH YOUR PHONE
Putting the phone beside your bed or anywhere near you is not encouraged. Though some of us will use phones as alarm clocks, but please put the phone as far as possible. Scientists have proved that electrical items including mobile phone and television sets emit magnetic waves when used. These waves can cause disruptions to our nervous system. Therefore if you need to put your mobile phone near you, switch it off first.
DON'T SLEEP WITH MAKE UP ON
People who sleep with make up might have skin problems in the long run. Sleeping with make up will cause the skin to have difficulty in breathing and problem in perspiring. You will also need a much longer time to go into deep sleep.
DON'T SLEEP WITH OTHERS' HUSBANDS or ermmm... you may never wakeup again ;-P

If only she knew...

2006-06-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

These past few weeks, on and off my darling 3 year old daughter keeps telling me...

*D*: Mama, janganlah pergi ofis
Me : Kenapa?
*D*: Please mama...*D* saaayaaaaannng mama

And everytime I leave the house, she’ll cry. Same happens when her Daddy goes to work.

Gosh...that just breaks my heart. ..

Darling *D*, if only you knew...Mama actually malaaaaaaassssss to go to work.....

But what to do kan..must earn a living.

Hmmm..given a choice, this is where I’d love to be...

Laze around by the beach.

Come...join me.....(yes, without a doubt am obviously in dreamland right now)

Chocolate Lover

2006-06-01T15:53:00.000+08:00

Lets try this first..

YOUR AGE BY CHOCOLATE MATH

1. First of all, pick the number of times a week that you would like to have chocolate
(more than once but less than 10)

2. Multiply this number by 2 (just to be bold)

3. Add 5

4. Multiply it by 50 -- you may need a calculator for this

5. If you have already had your birthday this year add 1756 ....If you haven't, add 1755.

6. Now subtract the four digit year that you were born.

You should have a three digit number

The first digit of this was your original number
(i.e., how many times you want to have chocolate each week).

The next two numbers are:
YOUR AGE! (Surprise, surprise!)

Darn..now I’m craving for chocolates.

Don’t know if I can consider myself as a CHOCOHOLIC but I do adore chocolates. Like Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie would say: "LOVES IT!". Chocolates have a way of offering a profound richness, a sweetness of life and a euphoric sensation of luxury. And the way it melts in your mouth? Gosh! It can be a moment of pure ecstasy! I don’t need a special occasion to eat chocolates. I usually buy one after lunch when I’m craving for something sweet. So, me and concreterose would swing by Isetan Supermarket, browse through the chocolate section and think "hmm..what shall we get today?". So many choices..Yummmmmmm.......

Can chocolate make you fat? I guess so. A moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips..thats what they say, right? Of course I don’t take it every single minute of the day. Only when the craving comes. There were attempts to give up chocolate but its so hard. Its just too tempting. Women who are committed to being thin can easily do it. Its ok. I am committed to enjoying my life. As long as I eat it moderately, I’ll be ok.

There’s so many kind of chocolate brands that I like but I will always have a soft spot for PENGUIN. What frustrates me the most is that its not sold in Malaysia. It was so easy to get in the UK..guess I took it for granted. And now, if I know a friend or relative is going to London, my immediate reaction would be "nak kirim chocolate Penguin!". No need expensive stuff. Am not fussy...just get me Penguin chocolates! :) What’s so special about it? Nothing really. I mean, its not expensive or considered the high-end brand. You can just get it from any hypermarkets like Safeway. But the taste is just so yummy. And there’s these cute little penguin pictures on the wrapping paper. *sigh* Miss my PENGUIN! Anyone going to the UK?

As times go by

2006-05-31T05:58:00.000+08:00

Dearest, I have come to grace my presence in this wonderful blog!...Dont think that I have abandon and forgotten, simply put I have again , allowed myself to be engulfed with busy life and stopped blogging for awhile! Kudos to you guys who find the time regularly to share your thoughts

Great thoughts I have and many a story to tell, but atlast ....did not get around to doing it!

As time goes by, I realised, altho I think that I have not changed much from the girl I was at 18 to now, being almost 30, I am beginning to see that I have in actual fact change my outlook and perception on certain things rather a lot.

Then, I did not like malay movies, malay songs, malay drama's and a malay novel is a definite no-no....the language it self can make me squirm and I would not even hear a malay song in a car radio. Everything that i like was in english, thousands of books read and bought, all in english. My appreciation of malay works were close to zero or non at all...

Now,....My favourite and only tv series Im watching is Sembilu Kasih, no more alias or er...ERA is most of the time on in my car unless its maisy mouse or barbie movies of my darling daughter, and Im loving reading malay novels and do not squirm, in fact love the language especially when they are talking about love! I have read 5 malay novels recommended by a senior staff of mine on our night trip back to cherating, I i really really like it....I get easily moved by malay novels compared to when reading english once....Currently my favourite author is aisya sofea and like all her books so far, some more than the others...Unfortunately she has only 6 books or so, and is not such a prolific writer like some. But her books are of good quality and the romantic in me do surface after reading her romance novel. I am reading other authors as well and all I can say is....malay books are easier to relate than the usual english chick flick!...Imagine that!...i never thought before...I would really have a change of heart after many years squirming at the malay novels and hating malay songs or movies!....never say never huh?

Did I mention that I was in korea , one fine week in May, the place of winter sonatas and korean drama's and kimchi. If not, yes we were there for almost seven days on a holiday tour, mua, hubby and our two darling kiddies!...A very famous question Ive been getting, besides how was it is...Ok ke bawak dua2 budak tu?...kenapa tak tinggal?...tak bawak maid ke?....To be honest Im surprised at some of these questions coming from both friends and family...Takkanlah tak bawak anak pergi holiday,...apahal pulak nak tinggal kan depa and pergi bersuka-suka and lastly....giler ke nak bawak maid pi korea....MAHAL la...and not to mention where sthe privacy there...It is a pure family affair....simply put. A time of bonding and having a good time, enjoying each other and seeing the world...takkan some members are left behind or there are outsiders present...just not done.

Anyway, when we said that they were both manageable and well behaved...not all the time tho....but most of time...and was ok bringing them....some macam tak percaya or jsut amazed. I dont know why is this so...children is not so hard to bring on holidays...you need to make them use to travelling and especially have a lot of patience...heheh...the two dearies have , I think got used to travelling and tahan lasak...so my soon to be blogger mummies and future blogger mommies....dont be afraid to bring them for a holiday and break their schedule and routine...they will get use to it and will enjoy it...Anyway , they are too young to always stick to routine things!!

SO the memories of korea...fresh cool air, beautiful natural scenery,nice clean cities and countryside, friendly korean hospitality, the language barriers, eating lots of seafood ,vegies and kimchi, nice and friendly tour mates, funny moments with the kids, shopping for kids clothing, ginseng ans amethyst and korean school girls mobbing u*, mua and hubby already planning next holiday...work hard then holiday...can best tu!...hahhaha now to recover from credit card debts...who ever created credit cards...real sadist...i nak pengsan bila i tgk my cc bill....oh god who has been using my card!!...so i have to lay low...to replenish and save,...aanyone got any ideas how to do it??

Masa di korea , hanya tinggal kenangan manis yang tidak akan dilupakan dan kini kami merancang mencari kenangan baru di tempat lain , mengharapkan kenangan manis di tempat lain pula yang boleh disimpan di dalam hati dan sanubari.....WAH....IS THAT BAD MALAY OR WHAT...hahahaha i tengah berangan nak jadi malay novel writer instead of mills and boons writer...whaddaya guys think...DONT quit my day job huh?

Salam sayang to all of you, whereever you are and what ever you are doing...my dear SoClose...I miss you loads....Janganlah sepi tanpa berita...kami disini semua inginkan secebis berita dari diri you yang jauh disana.....tulislah ok!

Till later my dear friends...

Friendshipbabes

2006-05-30T10:52:00.000+08:00

"Without friends we are lost…." - Jonathon Lkary 1903

Friends come and go throughout our lives. But if we are lucky, we sift through the leavers, find some lifelong friends who will always be there for us.

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.
-Henri Nouwen-

*Big hug for my fellow bloggermates: Concreterose, Mrs Jones, Sweetpea and SoClose*

Useful recipe

2006-05-25T09:47:00.000+08:00

Slept late last night. Went to work feeling very groggy. As usual, the first thing to do is to open up my mail box. Read the first email and burst out laughing. Terus rasa segar-bugar. I would like to thank my very good friend, *maria* for making my day. I have no idea where she gets all these stuff.

Don’t know if you guys have read this but nak share jelah anyway. Errr..X-rated ke ni?

HOW TO MAKE LOVE
Ingredients:
4 Laughing eyes
4 Well-shaped legs
4 Loving arms
2 Firm milk containers
2 Nuts
1 Fur-lined mixing bowl
1 Firm banana

Directions:
1. Look into laughing eyes.
2. Spread well-shaped legs with loving arms.
3. Squeeze and massage milk containers very gently.
4. Gently add firm banana to mixing bowl, working in and out until well creamed. For best results, continue to knead milk containers.
5. As heat rises, plunge banana deep into mixing bowl and cover with nuts, leave to soak (preferably NOT overnight).
6. The cake is done when banana is soft. If banana does not soften, repeat steps 3-5 or change mixing bowls.

Notes:
1. If you are in an unfamiliar kitchen, wash utensils carefully before and after use.
2. Do not lick mixing bowl after use.
3. If cake rises, leave town.

Simple, no? For those who are clueless on love making can try this out. But am sure it comes naturally. No need recipe, huh? *nudge, nudge, wink, wink*

Tell me......

2006-05-21T22:07:00.000+08:00

......how far would you go if you really hated someone?

Don’t make rash decisions. Even if you are so angry at another person, there is still a limit to what you can do...

Some people just amaze me...*sigh*

the pregger in me

2006-05-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

1. Silver cross pram
Oh yeah, I still couldn’t get over its price. Yes, it is £ 9000 !! Ada dijual di harrods london.. Hai memang terjuling bijik mata. I was walking at 1 utama when I saw this expensive stroller from brand, Stokke. It costs RM4000, woweee !! Haaa, yang ini kalau nak mahal pun memang berbaloi la cos boleh buat macam-macam. High tech you.. You can turn it into a high chair, can manouvre while turun tangga, can adjust lots of levels, can turn the stroller to face you or face the scenery in front.. Lots of possibilities. I don’t think silver cross can do those stuffs, if it can, then the price will zoom to £ 15000 or more !!
2. Baby package
Walking in to a baby shop on a Sunday left me walking away in amazement. There’s a sense of deja vu. It’s like walking into a bridal shop where you can buy a package that includes bridal trousseau, makeup, pelamin, bedroom, hantaran, the works..
Here, I can opt for a baby package that includes baby cot, stroller, baby car seat, breast pumps, baby cot mattress and pillows set, the works.. In the end, we didn’t buy anything.
Huaaaa !!! Macam nak kawin lagi sekali jer...
3. Neo oh neo, neo kucing nakal !
I was so embarassed with nyonya gan, my neighbour. She told my mum, neo’s despicable act. He caught and ate nyonya gan’s gold fish and other smaller gold fishes from her pond. Nyonya gan had to buy new gold fishes and a steel net to cover her pond.
Aiyoo, neo...why u’re giving me such disgrace... ( Mana itu penyapu lidi..? ) I am wondering whether nyonya gan’s gold fishes are as expensive as gold cos I plan to replace her gold fishes. Poor nyonya gan...
4. Oh, I read about katie holmes’ delivery and she did not fully follow scientology’s way of delivery - the silence way.. Hmm, I can imagine if I am a scientology follower, I’ll be a confirmed apostate with the amount of screaming and swearing I’ll make in the labour room, heheee.. A great sinner, no less !!
5. One of my friend’s wife has just given birth last week to a baby girl with the help of a vacuum. Aisey man... I wonder how I will fare in the future. Kalau wife dia tak reti nak push although dah attend class, apa pula la nasib I nanti..
6. I already celebrated my 2nd wedding anniversary which fall on Labour Day recently. We went to Redang. I teringin nak pergi Redang bcos darling hubby asyik cakap, "pasir pantai dia cantik, macam bedak you.." Aargghh.. I pun teringin la nak pergi.. Furthermore, I can try to overcome my fear of sea. So, I did snorkel but kat tepi laut je ( ada Marine Park ) and for a short time cos hubby dah terasa kulit dia pedih from the piercing sun although he has slather thick layers of sunblock more than I did. The second time snorkel which was around the island, I dah takut cos on that day - the water was quite rough due to the cloudy weather. I panicked so I naik balik atas bot and sat on the edges feeding schools of fish with old bread courtesy of hotel’s kitchen. Can’t handle choppy and wavy sea, calm sea water only for me. At the last stop, it was drizzling but that doesn’t stop our group from snorkelling. Hubby was having so much fun bcos there’s no piercing sun to bother him, lucky him !!
7. Yesterday, I went to watch the anticipated movie The Da Vinci Code. I went to watch the 5.25 pm movie. TGV KLCC ni memang sucks la. At first, sound system kaput. Then, tak leh roll the reel pulak and ended up watching nearly 30 mins of ads including masa silent time.. Boring betul laa... So I ended up exiting the cinema at 8.20 pm cam tu. Eeee, rugi masa betul la.. Patutnya dah boleh keluar cinema by 8 pm !! Grrr !!!
8. I read in the sun paper, young mind’s ( I think) column yesterday. The writer rant and rave about being called less Malaysian just because she doesn’t eat petai. She’s also not satisfied with Raja Azmi’s strong statement given in Fenomena Seni tv programme. She said that Malaysia belongs to the Malay.
I’m not sure whether to be amused or feel sympathy for the writer. For me, why should she feels disturbed with those inane statements ? Eating petai is an individual’s choice. No need to feel patriotic or nationalistic or racist about it. Same goes to statement Malaysia belongs to the Malay. By right, Raja Azmi should be arrested under ISA for creating social unrest among audience. But since she’s a film producer and appear on RTM, I don’t know if Dato Zainudin Maidin wants to take any action. Not enough of an issue to elevate his political status as opposed to the cartoon. For all you know, he doesn’t even watch that inane programme.
First of all, if I’m a French, I don’t think I would be dubbed less French than my other countrymen just because I don’t eat escargot or foie gras. Maybe I’m a vegetarian or I’m just geli to eat it. Plenty of reasons to not eating them so it’s very much an individual’s choice. Same goes to petai la.. Eating or not eating them does not make a Malaysian more or less Malaysian.
As for the strong statement, I wouldn’t be bothered so much too cos who is this bozo Raja Azmi anyway ? She’s not a million dollar film producer in the same league as Yusuf Haslam. From her argument, you can easily tell that she’s not that really an intelligent person. Her movies are all flops. I think she has her own agenda to popularise herself by making strong statement on national tv. She’s not an academia nor the 21st century thinker. She’s just jealous of Yasmin Ahmad cos she kept bashing at Sepet and Gubra movie in that programme.
So, as long as the writer owns IC and/or Malaysian passport, she’s very much a Malaysian. Think about all those Orang Asli children who don’t have birth certs. No birth certs equals no IC equals NO country. And that, not Malaysian at all !!
What a waste of newpaper space. For me, the writer should give her views on macro level such as the state of our water supply if she's not aware of Orang Asli situation. It’s dirty and smelly. For middle and high class people, they can afford to buy water filters but what about those from low income group? They are drinking water unfit for consumption as if living in those African country and yet this is Malaysia. So called developing country with twin towers some more. The nearest example is the water supply to my sister in law’s rented flat in Taman Melati, Gombak. It’s so karat !! Argghh....
Malaysians do not care about their society and environment anymore. If we do, then we don’t have to suffer buying expensive filters and Yasmin Ahmad doesn’t have to make thought-provoking movies. How could we profess our love to God when at the same time we perform cruelty to animals ? Not slowing down when we see cats or dogs doing their road crossing. Yup, we care no more...

any ideas?

2006-05-18T09:43:00.000+08:00

what should i get as a birthday present for a 34 year old woman, who is a homemaker, and is now pregnant with her second child?

need ideas, friends....

"Now I know, Daddy" :)

2006-05-10T09:42:00.000+08:00

Did you have any chores to do when you were young? Any that you dreaded doing? For me, I didn’t mind helping out in the kitchen or cleaning the house or folding the clothes or watering the plants or washing my parent’s car but one thing that me and my siblings would always try to avoid was when we were asked to pluck out our dad’s grey hair!!

Everytime he lies down in front of the tv, we know that would be the sign. He’ll call out our names and say "ok...sapa nak cabut uban Daddy ni?". We would be pushing each other and say, "Go la..Its your turn", "Hey, I did it the last time!" "No..I did it.." "You go.." "No, you go!". This would go on for a couple of minutes until my dad screams out our names one by one. At that point we’ll be panicking and usually whovever’s the the younger sibling at the time would have to go. Of course the older sibling would always have the excuse "I did it more times than you, so, you go!". I guess its a way for the older sibling to bully the younger one. My sister used to do that to me and I would do it to my brother and he would do it to our youngest brother. But most of the time Daddy didn’t need to call us because the ‘victim’ would always be the unlucky person who entered the tv room. Sometimes, if either one of us enters the tv room and see him lying down, we’ll quietly sneak out and immediately warn each other. "Daddy’s in the tv room..and he has the tweezers!!". And we’ll know what it means :). So, off we go to hide somewhere..until of course, when he screams out our names.

Yeah...I know, we were bad but then again, what do you expect from kids that age? Plucking out grey hairs wasn’t exactly a fun thing to do. Number one, we had to remain static at one place. Number two, it would be ok if we got to choose the tv channel but usually my dad decides the programme and it was always the boring ones. So you can imagine how tiring the whole activity was. There was this one time when I wasn’t in the mood and I asked him "how long do I have to do it?". He said "ok, try to find 20 grey hairs, then you can stop". He didn’t have that many grey hairs at the time and even if I could find 20 grey hairs, it would take me a lot of time. So it was definitely a challenge. What did I do? I cheated. Since he was lying on the carpet, I searched for any strands that had a resemblance to grey hairs! Of course I had to do it very discreetly. I combined that with his actual grey hairs that I found and walllahh.... I got the 20 grey hairs in a span of 10 minutes! He was so amazed!! Or maybe shocked that I could actually find 20 grey hairs! Jahat la I..Poor Daddy...

Back then I thought what’s the big deal about grey hairs anyway? Why don’t we just let it grow? I didn’t understand it then but now I do...after having a few grey hairs of my own, that is. I had like one or two before but ignored it thinking my hair must have got damaged because I got it highlighted early last year. I took it out anyway because no way would I let people see me with grey hairs! (Am obviously a vain person..hihi). But last weekend I just totally freaked out! While combing my hair, I saw a grey hair and since it was out of reach, I asked my maid to take it out. When she pulled it, she saw another one, then another one and another until in total she took about 10 grey hairs! And all in one go?? I nearly had a heart attack (not that I really know what that feels like). I’m still in my early 30s and I have 10 grey hairs??!! Sob..sob. I know my birthday is coming up but is this like a big reminder that I’m getting old?? Whats the normal age to get grey hairs anyway?

Told my mum on Sunday and she said "Nooo...don’t take it out. More will grow!". But how come she didn’t tell my dad off back then? People have been telling me this but I’m not sure if its true. Could it just be an old wives tale? Tell me guys...show me facts, show me statistics..I mean, is it scientifically proven?

Different people show different reaction towards grey hairs. Depends what age they are la, of course. Some just yank it out, some would dye their hair and some couldn’t care less. I guess I understand now what my dad felt all those years. People equate grey hairs to being old. Maybe we didn’t want to look old..just yet. In some bizzare way, it was also a bonding session for us. The ‘alone’ time was used to catch up on stuffs, talk about school etc. Anyway Daddy, thanks for the memories. Even though it was kind of a ‘torture’ but I wouldn’t change that memory for the world......

koalas here i come.....

2006-05-08T11:07:00.000+08:00

will be going away for a few days to the land of down under, but have mixed feelings about it...

excited... because i'll be smack in the middle of sydney at martin place, and one of the itinerary is dinner hosted by the counterparty by sydney opera house with view of harbour bridge..
pissed... because there's supposed to be 3 of us going, but the russian guy didn't get his visa approved on time by the aussie embassy.. which leads me to my next feeling...
gabra... since i'll be the only one with BOSS, there is no one else for him to fire his ammunition of fiery questions.. *sigh* i'll be brain dead....

but all in all, i suppose i shud be happy that i'm going.. and regardless whether i'll be tortured by BOSS or not, koalas here i come...

but errr.. kat sydney ada koalas ke? hehe maybe won't even have time to hug one ;-p

Shopping Frenzy

2006-04-28T03:34:00.000+08:00

Today was the Isetan Member Presale. My pregnant lunch buddy wanted to have a quick lunch and then check-out the maternity clothes on sale. Since I didn’t want to spend lunch time alone, I had no choice but to follow her. When she was busy trying out the clothes, I decided to browse the other sections. I noticed a lot of customers were scrambling through these stack of clothes. I was about to approach the section when suddenly I was pushed from behind. Apparenty this lady was trying to get to the area first. I was too shocked to say anything and just stared at her with utter disbelief. In her arms I could see what could have been 50 pieces of clothes. The only thing she could say was "sorry aaa...sorry aaaa..itu sale 70%..takut habis la". I was loss for words. Gave her a sharp disapproving look, rolled my eyes and left. No point to tell her off coz people like wouldn't give a damn anyway.... *sheesh* How desperate can some people get?.

I hate sales..Ok, maybe ‘hate’ is too strong a word. I guess I just don’t particularly like all the hassle bassle and craziness of people rushing to buy their stuffs. Coming from a woman, this does sound kind of crazy, huh? Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind the normal sales but if its things like ‘one day sales only’ or ‘member presales only’, where its jam packed with loads of people, aiyooohh...I cannot tahan la. I don’t have the patience to queue, be it to pay or to try out the clothes. I was amazed to see the queue today. Oh God..I just can’t be bothered. Some people take it too seriously and start grabbing every cheap item they see and wouldn't care less about the other people around them.The higher the sale percentage , the crazier people get.

*sigh* I think I’ll just settle for the normal sales where I can shop at my own pace. There’s less stress and there’s no need to compete. Maybe I pay a bit more compared to the presales but at least I get to shop in comfort :)

am an ESFP ;-)

2006-04-25T15:36:00.003+08:00

"is that really me?", i was asking my colleagues 'Celine' and 'Jo'.

our team building session mid-of-the-month was done in Eagle Ranch in Port Dickson.. basic kinna resort, with thank god hot water and air-cond.. Eagle Ranch holds out-doorsy sort of team building, the kind that gets you running and sweating..

and amidst the nite-jungle trekking, rafting and go-karting (best giler!!!), we had to fill in this 93-question questionnaire that would in the end tell what kind of personality type you are.. and how to work around problems, stress, bla blee blaa..

well.. i found out that.. i was an ESFP.. and my summary was....

"*concreterose* is outgoing, friendly and accepting. Exuberant lovers of life (hmm...), people, and material comforts (oh really?). Enjoy
working with others to make things happen. Bring common sense and
a realistic approach to their work (errr this one am a bit doubtful),
and make work fun. Flexible and spontaneous, adapt readily to new people and environments. Learn best by trying a new skill with other people. "

hmm... is that really me? macam betul... tapi macam tak betul jugak..... hahaha.. whatever it was.. i know, usually all these personality tests are too general for us to pinpoint exactly betul ke tak.. but it was kinna fun finding out where i was...

wish i am single..

2006-04-20T12:01:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I wish I am still single. Not married, not pregnant and definitely no in-laws to rub all the wrong things about/in/concerning my life and the upcoming baby. I hope I’m having a baby girl cos both my mother and youngest sister out-law are hoping for a boy. Our gynae thinks, most probably it's a girl after last week's scan. Sister annoyed us for asking why it’s not a boy ? (go and make your own baby boys). Mother praying hard for it to be a boy, (I boleh mengandung ni dah cukup bagus dah). I’m glad my mum has lots of grandkiddies that she couldn’t be bothered of the gender.

Make mommy’s wish come true this August, please...
With both flowering aloe vera and an unknown flower spring out of nowhere in my mum’s little garden, I sincerely hope I’m getting a girl. Only then, I can lose myself in Somerset Bay shopping for cute little, frilly dresses...
Some aspects of pregnancy are pretty crappy. For instance, constipation. According to my pregnancy bible, it’s because of those evil iron pill. They can turn mommy’s poop into iron of steel, so to speak..

More names coming up to me from annoying sister out-law : habib, bilal and habibah.

Can I unpregnant and unmarry myself now ??

Note to self: Be thankful

2006-04-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

What a gloomy afternoon. It just started to rain. I wonder how Concreterose is coping with her teambuilding.. :). Am so jealous actually. I just love all these outdoor activities.

The office is pretty quiet. Boss hasn’t been bugging me much today, so I’m able to work at my own pace. I’ve got things to do but since its already Friday afternoon, I feel like relaxing a bit and think about things.

I’ve been waiting for something to happen for quite some time now. But damn it. Everything is just so slow. Have you ever wanted something so badly that you feel your life won’t be complete until you have it? I’ve been secretly blaming someone for this. I know its unfair coz this person doesn’t even know what I’m feeling or what I want. But I can’t help it. The bad side of me feels I have to put the blame on someone.Telling the person is a straight no-no, so I just have to wait and see how things go.

What is it that I want? Well, thats not really important. What I wanted to share is that I realised today how impatient I have been. I guess this gloomy weather forced me to do some reflection. Sometimes when we want something so badly, we tend to lose focus of what we have. We start being ungrateful or start blaming others if we don’t get it or feel that we are the unluckiest person on earth. Sometimes we just need to take a step back and think of what we have now and be grateful rather than go rushing for something thats uncertain. True, certain things may not be going our way now but we should not let that spoil the other good things thats happening in our life. I need to always remind myself..."Be thankful...be thankful...". Now matter how crap we think things are going, somehow there's always someone else whose life is even worse. So, be thankful for all the little special things which happen around us and to us every day. I guess I shouldn’t be too obsessed with that thing I’ve been waiting for. After all, ‘Patience is key’. What’s important is to work hard towards that dream and InsyaAllah, if all goes well, I’ll get there.

My sister gave me this quote some time ago but I never got round to read it. I got the chance today and its just at the right time when I felt that I needed to change my perception on things.

Things you cannot lose-Ralph Marston
When you worry too much about losing something, you've already lost it.
For your worry prevents you from receiving any value out of whatever you're so
worried about losing.

Things do change, and what is here today may well be gone tomorrow.
You can worry and fret over that reality, or you can joyfully and lovingly make the
most of all you have right now.

The joy that you fully experience, you will not lose. The love that you live
and give, cannot be taken from your heart by any outside circumstance.

If you invest yourself too heavily in the fleeting, superficial things in
life, you'll be setting yourself up for a shattering disappointment when
those things are no longer with you. Instead, learn to treasure those real,
substantial, meaningful things that time and events cannot erase.

Get in the habit of fully living each day with meaning and purpose. You'll
find yourself worrying less about what you have to lose, and focusing more
on what you have to use.

Express gratitude for all you have by making the very most of it. And you'll
always have plenty to be thankful for.

three more days to...

2006-04-10T16:42:00.001+08:00

... a cafe latte me.....

in 3 days time, i'll be joining the rest of my department for a team building session by the sea.. looking at the itinerary, looks like by the time i am back in kl late saturday, my skin color will look more like cafe latte, with zebra stripes at the appropriate places.. let's see.. i know that we will have to do tonnes of outdoor activities 'tengah-tengah panas tepi laut' like....

rafting in the sea (i will hafta telan 2 dramamine/novomin becos yes, altho' i love the sea, i do suffer from motion sickness)...
tarantula activity (dun ask me what)
corporate maze (again dun ask me what)
marching.. yes, marching!! (err.. maybe my hitler boss loves it?)

the secretary also wrote in the email that we should bring at least 5 t-shirts, 3 trackbottoms and 2 sports shoes.. i was thinking to myself, "TWO?!! i dont even have one!!!"

what do you expect? for someone who hardly exercises, and when she does, *concreterose* only goes swimming, snorkelling, or whip out a yoga dvd (like 6 months ago)..

damn.. am soo going to hold other people down during the physical activities.. and yes, there will be a jungle trekking too....

*sigh* do i have to?

Rest and relax

2006-04-07T12:26:00.001+08:00

Look at those bubbles!

I absolutely love bubble baths..A nice, hot bath is a great way to relax and unwind. There's nothing more soothing than having your body immerse in hot, steamy water and covered in lots and lots of bubbles .

Here's a tip to ensure we have a great bubble bath:
First, make sure that no one will be bothering you for awhile. Lock all the doors. Fill the bathtub with hot/warm water and add bubbles or bath salt if you like. You can also add essential oils too. Light scented candles and put them around the bathtub. Turn the lights off. Submerge slowly into the water, toes first. Try to relax. Close your eyes and drift off, but don't fall asleep! You can also play some music in the background. Forget about all your troubles, worries, anxieties, etc. The main key here is to relax and enjoy yourself as much as possible. Also the hotter it is, the more born again you'll feel when you get out!

Am so glad its already Friday and hoping for a stress-free weekend.

Hope you guys have one too.. I'll be enjoying my bubble bath...Take care...!!

2006-04-05T10:48:00.000+08:00

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Stressed over Venus?

2006-03-30T15:46:00.000+08:00

Godddddd...What’s wrong with me today? My brain absolutely refuses to function. I cannot work. I cannot think. . Switchfoot’s ‘Only Hope’ has been on repeat for the past 2 hours. I just love this song *Trueblue smiling to herself and starts to daydream*. Anyway, I have also been staring at the same presentation slide since God know’s when. The more I stare, the more sleepy I get. How I wish I was at home at this particular moment. Either reading a good book or just laze around under the covers. Yep..I can imagine myself already :) Trying to keep myself warm. Curl my body. Hug one of the pillows. Pull the covers right up to my chin. Close my eyes. And dreaaaammmmmmm... Ahhh..Perfect. Just what I need right now.

Was chatting with Nadia this morning and told her about my inability to work today.
"I cannot work la today. I can’t even think"
"What’s wrong? Are you bothered about something?"
"Well, there are a few things on my mind.Plus, didn’t have much sleep last night"
"Maybe you’re just tired...or maybe you’re stress. Ooohh..let me email you something"

So, this is what she sent me:
..............................................................................
Choose 3 scenarios out of these 4:
- A group of people taking photographs
- A galloping horse
- A house with a garden
- A statue of the goddess of Venus

Decided which 3?

This test is actually about the cause of our stress recently and the vital one is the one you left out.

If you left out the one with the:
- Group of people taking pictures
: it means you're very tired over human relationships around you right now

- Galloping horse
: it means you're tired and stressed over work recently

- House with the garden
: it means you're tired with some matters concerning your family /household lately

- Statue of Venus
: it means you're stressed over matters of the heart. Not exactly relationship problems, but more to do with being tired of trying to settle things with your girlfriend/boyfriend.

Now which one did you leave out?
.............................................................
Interesting test...Not sure if I want to believe it but for fun-fun, takpelah kot. At least I managed to read something else instead of having to stare at the boring slide....

Oh yes..wanted to share one more thing. I went to the bank earlier and was queuing behind this man at the ATM machine. Was minding my own business when suddenly I heard "poot..poot..poot..poot..poot". I wasn’t sure what it was at first because the bank was kinda noisy. But when a strange smell suddenly 'emerged', I could pretty much guess what it was. DAMN! That was one nasty smell! He didn’t even bother to apologise. I had the urge to kick him in the ass!! How rude can some people be? %$*@!!

Haiyaaaa..Increase my stress level some more! Now confirm cannot do work today. Suwey la that guy. I need to eliminate all these negative energy. A bit of pampering after work would be good. Something simple should do it. What shall it be? Hair treatment or Mani/Pedi? Hmmmmmmm........

principally concerning nothing

2006-03-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

Girly girl girl..
Last Sunday, my mum told me her aloe vera plant has flowered. Waaahhh... She has not seen an aloe vera plant flowered before (neither do I anyway), thus it’s her first time plus it’s HER aloe vera, no less ! She proudly showed me the flower and happily tells me that she thinks it flowers because she will be getting a granddaughter from me. Is this in relation to hubby’s predilection towards watching America’s next top model and Project Runway or anything related to fashion..?
Back to my mum’s story, she told me that prior of me telling her that I got pregnant, she dreamt of receiving a gold locket. So real was her dream that she got disappointed when she realised it was just a dream. So she thinks I might be carrying a girl since gold locket takkan signify a baby boy kan....?
Then, few weeks before she took a glance at me and absentmindedly said my pores oozing with female hormones. At that time, I was convinced that her mindset already fixed on me carrying a baby girl so I chose to ignore je laa..
Then last Sunday, my husband spent his morning tidying up our bedroom cos dia cakap I ni tak de masa depan punya orang sebab tak pandai kemas - everywhere dia tengok, ada barang I. Heheee.. Alaaa, my mess cuma magazines and lots of junk mail jer..not anything gross like unfinished food or unwashed clothes. Again, my mum said perangai husband I jer dah indicate I will be getting a girl. Cannot believe that cos husband memang suka mengemas. Ok, we shall wait and see what’s the gender will be during my next check up in April where I’ll be in my 22 weeks.
Preggos club..
On a lighter note, husband points out that I joined Hollywood’s mummies-to-be this year like Gwen, Angelina Jolie, Jennifer Garner, Katie Holmes. Back in the office, I found out that CL dah pregnant, MAK is pregnant too after just last year she gave birth to a lovely baby girl. Power betul diaorg ni, that was exceptionally fast !! At least I ada la geng bawa perut this year, even k roxy pregnant too. She gave me hope that 40-something woman still can conceive. When I look around me, suddenly I saw many pregnant women walking around. As SAA cheekily remarked, "tahun ni tahun anjing kan ? Anjing memang beranak banyak !!".
I also found out that the most expensive pram in the world is Silver Cross pram worth 9000, tak sure la in USD ke or Pound ke or Ringgit. Kalau pound, memang terjuling la bijik mata. Pram dia tak de la high tech sangat I tengok. It’s an old school punya style, in black and silver. Hollywood celebrities are seen strolling their babies in Silver Cross prams. Hubby pun tau pasal Silver Cross ni, should I ask him how in the world he knows about that ??
This week is my 20th week and that marks 5th month of my pregnancy!! I’m so relieved, 4 months plus plus more to go and out my tummy buddy goes. It will put an end to my toilet angst. I hate to pee and pregnancy makes me pee every hour. I seriously think of wanting to living my life in the toilet. Work, sleep, eat, drink in the loo.. I know it sounds gross but that’s how desperate I am. Whoever say that second trimester is fun makes a misleading statement. Let me rephrase that - whoever say that pregnancy is fun makes a misleading statement !
Because of that, I sekarang malas betul nak jalan-jalan. I dah malas masuk shopping complex unless absolutely necessary. Tengok wayang pun dah malas. I pun dah tak ikut husband grocery shopping. All thanks to my loo-natic behaviour. Anyway we all know how our public toilets’ condition are so it’s nothing surprising I only like those in my house and office. Sekarang duduk rumah tunggu toilet je.
Because of frequent peeing and other inane reasons, I shelf my Bangkok holiday plans. I watch wistfully at my school friends who happily planning their Bali holiday this coming Labour Day while I have to settle for Redang. Kalau tak kerana anniversary, memang tak ingin I nak gi jalan-jalan. Teringat Bali spa, terus *sobs*.. At least I can tell people I’ve been to Redang and Tioman and Perhentian to answer the statement "asyik bali je, pulau lain kat M’sia ni tak pergi ke ?!" ;-)
Mane treatment
Since pregnant, I have no patience waiting for hubby to finish his work at 8 pm so I always go home by lrt and feeder bus. Going home by lrt means I have to catch my train before 6 pm so that I can reach the stop near my house before dusk. So, when I can’t make it for my train due to long afternoon discussion at the office, I decided to check out cheap hair salon nearby just to kill time. I wanted to do hair steaming treatment since the last one I did was last September.
I kinda miss Indonesian creambath which is equivalent to our hair steaming treatment. While the girl was shampooing and massaging hair creams to my scalp, I couldn’t help sighing. Back in Bali or Jakarta’s salons, they always give me an excellent longish scalp, neck, shoulder and back massage. They are generous with hair creams and those creams always smells oh-so-good !! Creambath RM 15, Special serums RM 10, Massage Priceless... Malaysian salons’ proprietor should learn from their Indonesian counterpart in hair steaming treatment. Actually, I nak massage...
The girl hardly massage my shoulder or back. It’s only a simple knead and rub over my scalp and neck. She managed to get my shirt wet at the back during rinsing sessions that she had to blow dry them for me. Tak pe la for a 50 ringgit, I should not complain much eh.. I wonder how big shot Martha Tilaar salons here doing with their creambath treatment. Creambath for short hair costs 80 ringgit and longer hair is 100. That’s in Khareyana spa. Dunno about those spa in Crown Princess or KL Hilton or even in Hartamas where trueblue and rosey went. Menyesal pulak tak ikut diaorg gi spa masa CL nak kawin.
Anyway, the whole process took about 1 half hours and she reminded me not to shampoo my hair for next 3 days. One thing pergi salon ni, diaorg suka sangat tanya our background laa. Keje kat mana, tinggal kat mana, umur berapa.. Nasib baik I look pregnant so tak tanya soalan dah kawin ke belum. Tapi tanya, kawin umur berapa, anak ke berapa and the usual dah berapa bulan thingy.. I ni malas betul nak melayan soalan peribadi, kalau nak tau demographics, ha gi buat feedback form or questionnaire. Dalam tu, tanya la personal particulars secukup rasa.. Finally masa blow drying tanya pulak I henna my hair ni sendiri ke, kat kedai. Not wanting possible sale soliciting, I pun cakap buat sendiri.
Me no like musicals
Last Friday, I went to Istana Budaya to watch M! The Opera to gain better experience after watching Fame dulu. I got free tickets anyway from my good friend who works with Vincent Tan whose company happens to be one of the main sponsors. I even refrain myself from drinking any water so that I don't have to rush to the loo every hour. Tapi tak berjaya, memang pergi jugak la since the hall is very cold.
Wasting my time only, I wish I went to Club 21’s sale instead. I don’t understand what they are singing cos their voice are drowned by the music. They sang in both English and Malay which is totally confusing. Just when I managed to understand their English singing, tetiba nyanyi dalam Melayu pulak dah !! I pulak tak beli their programme book so memang tak paham pun but after intermission, I got it for free. It was placed on my seat, bila balik rumah baca baru ler faham citer isk isk.. The next day, I learnt that Club 21’s sale is very good. My friend bought 5 armani jeans at 100+ per pair, I waaaaant !!! Rugi betul pregnant sekarang masa tengah sale. Furthermore, most brands tengah keluarkan their spring/summer clothes yang cun-cun.. Buying maternity clothes will be worthless cos I don’t know how large I can be. Therefore, not in the mood too, to buy stroller or baby cot or baby car seats or what nots. So not in shopping mood - frust punya pasal. If I can’t buy things for myself neither can my tummy buddy *evil*
Gossip...
Nak gossip sikit, I read last Sunday’s gossip section about erra and yusry’s crumbling marriage. I tend to agree with the columnist’s comment about them. Apparently erra told the media, their problem does not improve because they don’t have the time to mend their problems. They are telling us that their work is far, far more important than their marriage life ? That’s totally crap !! That’s like being married to your job instead of to each other. I hope the rest of us, fellow young married couples, DO NOT follow their examples in resolving important issues such as this. Whatever it is, of course marriage is first priority and to put your work / career above all is pathetic especially when you’re one half of married couple. Susah-susah aje kawin. I’m not a fan of erra or yusry but their approach to marriage is SO WRONG and as somebody widely known, that is simply not the thing to do or say. I just hope she gave that statement because to shut the media who pester her on the progress of their marriage.

ramblings....of the tak boleh tidor kind

2006-03-24T04:16:00.000+08:00

bebs and other insomnic bloggers out there

its bloody 4am..and i cant sleep after bangun bagi u* milk.. For many2 months...I have been sleeping full 8 hrs of sleep not to mention the 1/2 hr nap in the car to my parents place every morning...and suddenly today terjaga takleh tido pulak!!...whyla i wonder. Probly due to a tummy discomfort and hubby not around kut...so since most of the time i tak dgr u* cry for milk (ever since stop bfeed) and the darling H attend to him..malam ni im extra sensitive to makesure he is alright...(loves to tawaf the whole bed at night)

so...since no one to kacau to layan borak...good thing theres this blog huh?..anyways our very silent soclose..is coming back soon for 1 week only..so we got to squeeze in a weekday dinner to catch up with her..i called her last week to get an update...she has been extremely busy. her hubby joining her this time. So make your beautiful self free next week!

since a good frien of mine nak get hitch soon...which i am excited about..it has crossed my mind how our frienship would be once he has a significant other..a bit of me is not too sure everything will be the same...altho i and the h hopes it will be. So, we , me esp is very keen to try to ensure that we can all lepak as we have with a new additional member to the geng..so im excited to meet her and determined to be extra warm and friendly so that she can warm up to us easier...i have to do this...cos i dont htink the h and the other friend will be going the extra mile..being men.

some friends....once they go into the 'family' life, the previous life...friends,lepakking takes a real real backseat. Dont get me wrong, family is always first but...i mean some totally do not bother to maintain any sort of friendship once they are happily and busily hitched. thank god most of my good friends are not like that ....so we can maintain the friendship that was built throughout the years. So...i hope its the same for this friend of mind as we have been friends thru thick and thin, summers and winters, fun times and fights, ups and downs...since 11 years or so ago. Maybe our occasional rambling phonecalls will have to ceased if the wifey does not like it...that i dont mind and may understand...but the hangging out together (with the hubby and other frien) sometimes and the yearly holidays...I hope will continue. In fact im determined than ever to get a long well with the partner to ensure that it continues...

a few things that has make me a lil anxious is this...he himself mentioned that his gf might not find the things we talk about interesting due to the age gap difference (5 years) and probly because of the lack of history...we do tend to meander towards the past , go down memory lane when we meet up ...also he did mention that his gf mostl speak in a certain language ...whereas we speak half-half and of the rojak kind...All this is no reason at all for us not to try to clik and im determined to see it happens...i hope he is as well...I mean it all boils down to the intent and usaha right?..will see how it goes

that brings me to the topic of my other friend...he is the more talkative and open kind...and we do have nice long phone conversation about life and all things related....argue on things...and talk about each others friends and company...even the h* likes to hear my end of the conversation when we chat and later...get an update on his views. My h, thank god understands this friendship we have,,,simply because it is very open , transparent and he is also the hubbies friend for a long time now...lepak buddies you know...and it has been there for a long time now. He will pass the phone to me for me to do the talking if any of them calls (men!). Also...i think he thank his lucky stars that he is happily married and not out there searching for lurve and a partner to share his life like his other lepak buddies (hehehhe i think la...thats what he sayslakan...u never know tho)..

So if my hubby does not mind our friendship and regular occasional (mebbe not so occasional) long chats because he knows him well and all other reasons above...maybe his future sig other may not understand it because she may not know me and think ...friendship between a guy and girl...after marriage is a abit of a 'no-no' or thinks that it should not be necessary...Hey,,...whos talking about neccessary here...of ocurse its not necessary..BUT its nice to have a good friend right?

Anyway....is it mean for me to wish that his future sig other is...hopefully near in age (1/2 years diff)...the 70s kid...heheh and talks rojak...and basically in the same wavelength as us...is friendly and talkative..have relatively same outlook...like to lepak and waste time chatting ..plays monopoly...also loves to crack jokes?...sound like a tall order huh. Am trying to persuade him that someone closer in age would benefit him hehehe...and not to worry about the 'shorter child bearing years' as compared to marrying someone 5 years younger!! I dont think he is unreceptive to my ideas...but where is this person he asks??...if someone can introduce him to 'this person'...he would be receptive...Problem is ...i dont know anyone that i can introduce him to...so,...just hoping the someone he finds is something like what i ahve described...and yes that she too understands our long friendship and wants to be part of the geng..

Enuf of this rambling...we are only humans, ..hence can only hope and plan...its god that ultimately make it happen or not. Kalau dah jodoh/..

why am i not sleeppy....grrrr....i feel like kacauing my anak pulak..NO!...kesian...m* ada school tmrw and i already broke the rule...psg tv sampai mlm last night.

ok....BLOG on people...gimme your feedback...on friendship...partners...soul mates and your take on 'hoping things will be the same'

lionel's croon.....

2006-03-22T15:48:00.000+08:00

“Girl, tell me only this
That I have your heart,
For always and…..”

i couldn’t believe that i was there.. throughout the concert, i was singing along at the top of my lungs, and swayed my body left and right.. it was bliss…

a few days before that, when i told some frens that this year, i would rather go to see lionel richie than the F1 at sepang, they looked at me like i was mad… but betul.. that was how i felt..

i know.. i know.. he’s very the ‘bell’, but i soo like many of his songs.. (although my song for the moment is still beyonce’s check on it)..

come to think of it.. how did i get hooked on lionel.. hmm….

i guess when i was small, i did use to listen to lionel whenever my parents had it on..
then i sorta forgot all about him..
later on, when i went into uni, my mat salleh friend Rachel who was a fan of lionel used to put him on her cd player because she was depressed about this guy, and wanted to listen to ‘Sail On’ again and again…
and oh yes.. years and years later.. hubby dedicated the song ‘truly’ masa cake cutting during his reception.. how could i forget that…

up till now, i have lionel’s cd in both the car as well as at home.. whenever i need something soothing, i can always count of lionel…

so imagine my happiness when E said he got ticks for lionel’s spring gala concert at kl convention centre.. I was literally jumping up and down excited at the prospect of listening to lionel crooning my favourite tunes.. then it was “what to wear?” haha as if lionel’s gonna notice me teeheehee…

the concert was great.. he looked young and fit at 57 years old, his voice was as good as it is in CD, and is a great entertainer who could interact well with audience and made them laugh.. anyways, u would have read about the concert in the media, but these are some things that happened which i don’t think was put in print…

he cracked jokes about the king.. saying that “i saw the king dancing, and i haven’t seen any dancing like that since 1984” (after ‘All Night Long’).. and “i am under pressure.. i caught the king singing along.. the king knows all the lyrics..” (after ‘Sail On’)….
he dedicated a song to datin seri rosmah, I think it was ‘Three Times a Lady’..
mokhzani’s heavily pregnant wife went up on stage to give him a bouquet of flowers, during another mushy song.. and ended with kisses on the cheek….

anyways, my favourite songs of his are ‘Truly’ and ‘Ballerina Girl’.. but these songs also are my next favourite : ‘Stuck On You’, ‘Still’, ‘Do It To Me’, ‘Easy’, ‘Three Times a Lady’, ‘Sail On’, ‘Don’t Wanna Lose You’, ‘Lady’, ‘Oh No’… haha long list right.. now u know why i wanted to go to the concert..

and i'm sure u've got your own favourite lionel tune too, right.....

The babes at Sepang and the new babe from Indon?

2006-03-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

1.
Went to watch the PETRONAS Malaysian Grand Prix at Sepang today and I think I may have lost a kilo or two. Hehe..I know, thats a bit of an exaggeration. But with all the walking, it did feel like I lost some weight :). As usual, the weather was hot at Sepang and I was sweating profusely. It felt like a one years worth of exercise. So, I can say it was a good workout today. No more exercise for another year :)

I wouldn’t say I’m a die hard fan of F1 as compared to my guy friends in the office but I still enjoy being part of the whole fun. Never have missed going to Sepang since it first started in 1999. One of the things that never fail to amaze me everytime I watch the F1 is the different types of characters I see. Its things like the way people dress, the banners they bring, how fanatic the fans are etc. Anyway, it was particularly amusing to see a bunch of ladies manning this booth (can’t remember what it was). They were wearing this micro mini skirt with a really high slit. Sounds like any normal sexy lady we see at F1, right? The thing is, I was just surprised when I realised these ladies were actually men. I’m not sure what you call it in English, but you know those ‘mak nyah’ type. I have nothing against them but it was kind of funny looking at the faces of other people staring at them. Some ‘mat salehs’ were even interested to take pictures with them and it was hillarious to see the ‘ladies’ in their poses. Talk about having their own fans....

2.
The new maid finally arrived on Thursday night. We were extremely late, and so *H* had to drive like a madman to the airport. The moment we arrived, he left me with the car and rushed to pick up the maid. Bored of waiting, I decided to park the car and wait at the Departure area. It was a pleasant surprise to bump into my close friends who were lepaking at McDonalds. To kill time, I decided to join the guys. They were pestering me about the maid, wanting to know whether she is a babe. Typical guy question :). Anyway, immediately after that, I received an sms from *H* and burst out laughing : "Already with maid. Not pretty. How?". Haiyaa.....Maids must be pretty ke? Surely if she was a babe, she wouldn’t be a maid in the first place. She would have used her looks for better use.

On Friday morning, before going to work, I decided to check on the new maid and give some instructions for the day. I was shocked to see her in jeans and a baby T. It was more of a going-out attire.Wah..wah...bergaya sakan maid aku ni. I was too shocked to say anything at first but then thought, hey...this is ridiculous...I can’t imagine her cleaning the toilet in those jeans.
"Eh...apasal awak lawa sangat ni..takde baju duduk rumah ke...Tukarlah baju..".
Why she needed to dress up, is beyond me. My mum asked me later "Dia ada baju biasa tak? Nanti orang ingat Mummy pulak orang gaji". Hehe..it was a funny picture. The maid with jeans and baby T and my mum with her baju kelawar and rambut tak bersikat. People will definitely get confused :)

So far, she’s been ok work-wise but its still early days to trust her alone with *D*. Thats why I have to stay at my parents house so that my mum’s maid can train her. I still can’t help comparing her with *C* (the previous maid) though. No luck of getting her back. She’s now selling ice-cream at her kampung. *sigh* I miss her..

Its never too late to make a difference

2006-03-17T18:15:00.000+08:00

I’ve been feeling quite vulnerable for the past month or so and I finally lost my self-esteem yesterday. All because of the comments/remarks that I keep hearing lately. Its nothing new. I’ve known it since forever because thats how I am. Its my personality and its how I was brought up. The thing is, its one thing knowing it yourself but another thing when these remarks keep coming to you from other people and from all angles: front, back, left and right. Just imagine being hit with a bat..bam..bam..bam..one after another.

Of course, nobody likes to hear their weaknesses. Please don’t get me wrong...I’m not denying it but yes, it still hurts. Lately, its like hearing a record being played again and again. The more you hear it, the more you start wondering "Oh My God..Am I really that bad?". Maybe its one of those things where after you hear it so many times, you feel its true and you don’t change because thats what people expect of you anyway. It came to a peak yesterday when I had a ‘heart to heart’ talk with a close friend. We were talking about work stuff and suddenly the topic changed to my character in the office. I’ve always looked up to her because she’s a great worker, a high performing staff. We never really talked about this before but when I heard her say all these stuffs about me, my heart felt like it just burst into a million pieces. I guess its because I've been keeping the feelings bottled up for quite some time. I felt so low, so worthless and so empty. I lost faith in myself...like whatever hard work/effort I’ve done, the late nights, my determination to get things completed, my loyalty doesn’t count at all. The conversation and the earlier comments I got for the past few days/week made me feel like a pathetic loser. I tried hard to control the few tears that were streaming down my face. And thats when I really lost my self esteem. Being too nice definitely doesn’t help in this organisation.

Back at home, I had a good cry. It was a relief to finally let it all out. Thats when I finally realised that I need to make some changes in my life. Yes, different people have different ways of doing things. There will always be stronger characters than me. I should stop using that as an excuse, stop feeling sorry for myself and start doing something about it. Maybe its hard to change my personality because thats what makes who I am but I need to learn to use it to my advantage to avoid people’s perception or opinion that I’m always going to be overshadowed.

Boss told us in a meeting today that according to a psychologist, if we want to do something, never say "I’ll try to make it happen". In most cases, you never will. Its all about the mindset. We have to say "I must make it happen. I will make it happen". We must build the self-confidence right from the beginning.

This is one of the biggest lessons I’ve learnt. You can’t stop people from having opinions of you. I know I’m not entirely that bad. I just have to make some adjustments in my life. I may not be an expressive or a vocal person but that doesn’t make me stupid. I may be reliable, persistant and dedicated to my work but unfortunately, thats not how we play the game in this organisation. So yes, its time for a change.

"I must make it happen. I will make it happen!"

a short walk down memory lane and a very very pleasant surprise...

2006-03-15T06:08:00.000+08:00

dearest

i have resurfaced again to join the land of the bloggers after a rather long hiatus..no excuses except for the same ol one...busy and occupied with life in general...hehehe...work and family mainly. Since my last post...i have been busy managing the resort properties...dealing with all sorts of crisis and soft issues and also doing some marketing. Have gone up and down to setiu terengganu and cherating...dragging my 'circus' with me. It has been rather eventful...altho i am extremely frustrated at a job i am lobbying for my terengganu hotel...i mean really marketing hard has come to a bit of standstill...what i have learnt...it is not nice wanting something so badly...and to be so desperate..so i have decided to cool off..insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki adalah nanti...kalau takde banyak rezeki lain yang boleh cari. Dont get me wrong i still want it badly...but for now...i have to chill..Unless u guys got some very strong connection at a PET related training centre in Trgnu..LET me know!

Also, I try to go with this philosophy and thinking, If something is good , dapatlah nanti..kalau tak dapat...meaning its not goodla..kuahkuah...i think its easier to understand in melayu.

oh about going down on memory lane...on the 13th i went to my old secondary school in ss14 pj...to take my lil sis spm results...i havent been down there for many2 years. The school looks older but better..more lanscape more new things...they got a new hall all funded by the PIBG ...hehehe ...save the gomen some money huh.

SOme of my old teachers were there...they look the same...how can that happen?...i was 17 then and now im almost 30 ...they still look the same...heheh apala depa pakai agaknya..botox?..or is it more of my own memory playing tricks on me. Most did not recognise me...(wonderwhy?)..so had to wait for an hour before the cikgus came down to give the results...so there i was with a whole bunch of nervous 17 year ol girls...awaiting their fate..i remember the day i took my results like it was yesterday....and wonder where the years have gone by...thank god it has been good years. The school held many great memories of fun friendship and laughter and hey i did not do too badly for my spm...got scholarship overseas...oklah tu kan ( altho with that kind of results now,./..i would be categorised as a so so performer...bolehlah...scholarship?...dream on)

The main difference is....after the results were out ...compared to my time....most were happy joy2...nangis gumbira...and precious few were actually nangis sedih. During my time ...at least half sedih and half gembira. THis kids are doing very well nowadays...dulu 9a1...was like rare...now...15a1??...what....my conclusion...the exam has gotten easier to score as appose to the kids are more smarter and had working now ( my sis totally disagrees). WHAT do u guys think...u have to agree with me right...ok...maybe the graph is different...making it easier to score...unlike dulu...a1 is probably 95% above..hehehe thats what i like to think

anyway....adek...as we fondly call her...yep my youngest sibling...already 17...did very well. I was nervous for her because she was very driven and competitive..so i takut a good result would be not good enuff for her ...compared to her 3 older kakak...(in my family the younger adiks are more driven and hardworking than the older ones). Started with abang...my only bro 10 years younger than me...after years of being notty and a lil slow..(2a je upsr...talked at 3 yrs over)...suddenly at pmr...all As...SPM..all as and mostly a1..and .APA dah jadi...beat us all flat (NOT TOO HARD ) ..now adek...beat him flat...with 9a1 and 2a2 and 1119 also a1...duhh...must be easierla. That is my opionion and im sticking by it!!!!

with all that said...both of them memang rajin sikit compared to me and my kakak...then we were more happy to lepak, have fun, read story books and tgk tv...belajar was secondary and just something yg terpaksa.. Went thru high school day dreaming in class, copying friends home work the whole way thru and last minute exam studing through out...for spm ..baru gabra nak belajar kuat2 a month before the real thing...masa tu panic giler...as some subject mcm nak baru belajar...no thanks to daydreaming and copy homework org..but the 1 month before was full force to make up for the almost 2 years of malas attitude. The result...bolehla...at that time kira boleh jugakla...nak apply2 scholarship...kihkih@..I had a book of belgariad (story book) in my thick spm text books....as a cover up when my mom was looking...and my adeks...my mom had to say TAKE IT EASY...DONT STRESS... !...with us (my sis and i) TOLONGLAH BELAJAR...TAK TAKUT KE...NAK SENONGGENG KE....APAHAL RELEK SGT .NANTI MENYESAL.....BUDAK2 ni

dont blame me...i had my sis footsteps to follow...they were tHE suka lepak and not very driven...esp my 2nd sis...but overall...we made it..got good but not great results...scholarship...overseas and the works...so my mom tak lah stress sgt....hheheh....they should be happy...they didnt have to gadai rumah to send us overseas...so can i have some of the saved money back????

ok enuff on that....heres the big news

1. my weight loss and exercise mission has been scrapped since almost a month ago...(dont tell me u guys are surprised??...im not)....like i said hangat2 taik ayam and lack of willpower is my strong forte!..why?...malas...couldnt be bothered...been very busy...blame it on my long trips to trgnu that broke my routine...the key thing is not to stop at all...sbb bila dah stop...susah giler nak start...and now...i love to sleeo more...so i was saying to the hubby since malas nak loose weight...boley la go for no 3 ..(HAHAHA joke ok)....he was like...ha ye ke?...DUH...not yetla...2 toddlers pun tak tekejar..BTW...lil boy dah jalan and belari since abt a 3 weeks ago...not stable yet...jln macam kelakar sgt.

2. My ol ol very very good guy friend....(dont start guessing) recently broke the news to me that he was getting engage..shocker...i suspected something was amiss months ago...the person i use to be...would have got it out of him in a minute...but the career women and busy mom i am know...was not so persistent...maybe i was put off by his maya karin jokes when ever i ask him seriously (which is every time we go out)...I am truly happy for him...as i was getting a bit worried about him...sampai bila nak lepak dgn his married with kiddies fren and stay single?...WIshed that i had known earlier...anyway he is introducing her to his geng...ye lah...nak jumpa his gf before she brcomes his fiance....after going thru some of his past relationship...i was thinking i would have more info on the 'one'....i guess he wanted to keep a secret...katanya takut tak jadi...duh! Yang kelakar tu...he said...that many a times during the terengganu trip esp...he wanted to cerita about her...but i did not prod hard enuff...was more concentrating on a nother guy friend punya conquest...insya allah makan nasi minyak la kita tahun ini...yang bestnye...he gets to redeem my suria honeymoon package..at cherating and setiu...candle lite dinner and all...COZ he made the deadline!! InsyaAllah

ok lah guys...hope ur entertained by my cerita ceriti....if i get a lot of nibbles...i would be motivated to go back and check up the blog...hehehe...no promises...today is another eventful day at work....GRRRRRRRR

Random SMS

2006-03-14T17:43:00.000+08:00

The other day I received an sms from some weirdo who said:

"Hi there. I’m a guy, working in KL, 30 years old, looking for a female acquaintance, to flirt around mainly, no strings attached. I’m smsing randomly hoping for a response :)"

Any of you girls ever received this kind of message?

I was kind of surprised but then thought maybe one of my friends is trying to play tricks with me. To see if I would ‘menggatal’ to reply. Err...Sorryla, not interested, not desperate and not that kind of person.

But what if the guy is trying his luck? Hoping some girl would reply his sms? Waaa....very daring one. The thing is, its actually quite a turn off for me. Even if I was still single, I would never be interested to respond to some stranger. And he even had the cheek to say he just wants to flirt around! Sheesh!

I didn’t bother to reply.

In your dreams, mate...

One debt has cleared, with more to go....

2006-03-13T11:28:00.000+08:00

This month is the month where I'll be able to pay off my old celcom debt and terminate that number for good !! It takes me nearly 3 years to clear the bill, phew...lega.. It was back in 2002 where my celcom bill shot up to 2k plus.. It was crazy and very scary.. I quickly stop using my celcom number and use another provider while at the same time paying that stooopid bill bit by bit.

During my paying-off-celcom-bill phase, I always encounter unpleasant experiences with celcom. You see, I always pay my bill with cheques using its accompanying self-addressed envelopes. Most often than not, celcom always delay in updating my bill and conveniently forgot about it. The peak of my rage happens (after I told them that they have not updated my bill when in fact, my cheque has been cleared) when they cheekily told me to show proof from my bank that the cheque indeed has been cleared. Wahhh...ingat I tak sekolah ke..? My bank statement is not enough proof ke ?? You know what they want ?? A duplicate copy of my cheque (that I have sent to them) from the bank that it is indeed been cleared. Of course, my bank officer won't have it, "Puan, bank statement ni dah cukup bukti cek puan dah clear.." I HATE CELCOM sebab memalukan I je kena minta benda yang bukan-bukan dari bank, grrrr....

Dengan bengangnya, I log to the Internet, find their HQ's general line and call to ask the address and fax number of their VP of Customer Service. I wrote a letter to her in full BM, telling her that since celcom is the biggest telco in Malaysia with widest coverage of network shit, I am sure they have sistem maklumat yang canggih berbanding syarikat telekomunikasi yang lain. Malangnya, masih tidak mampu mengemaskinikan akaun pelanggan. I even cc it to the CEO's office.

Good enough, they updated my bill within one week after I faxed my letter. Her PA called me up after that for details. I was already thinking of taking it into higher level if they did not respond to my letter. I thought of complaining to the consumer tribunal of ministry of consumer affairs plus thinking should I write to central bank as well ? Central bank yang tak de kena mengena pun I nak tulis jugak surat, hahaaa !! I have the right what ?! Here I am, trying to clear my debt to you and you do shitty things to me, that's not fair, isn't it ??

Sheesh..celcom has becoming a liability to me since then, giving me all these bad experiences. After that, I paid my bill using credit card and religiously keep all my receipts. So that I can throw those receipts to the stoooopid customer service clerk if ever they want more proof that I really have paid the bill.

Another thing, terminating my celcom account is important to me. It ends one of my contactable numbers that my old boyfriend has of me. Out of all my past relationships, the third and last one is something I'm not very proud of. I don't know about others but I just don't like it the way he still calls that number occasionally in the middle of the night. Kalau tak pukul 12 pagi, mesti 1 pagi.. It happens few times when I use my celcom sim card in my old handphone to do international calls while one of my family members went overseas.

His actions reminds me of Cypress Hills' song..."memories they haunt me, they follow me, they don't die..." I mean, okay if he wants to remain friends with me, the least he could do is being proper with it by not calling me in the middle of the night. Tapi kalau dia call siang hari sekalipun, I memang tak nak cakap dengan dia.. Sadly, I am still contactable by him through my office phone and office email address. I can't change those. That's fixed man, unless I resigned from my current company or relocate elsewhere outside KL.

After this, hopefully I can clear my credit cards' debt faster than my phone bill :-))

Trueblue, justify yourself..

2006-03-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

*Sigh* Its that time of the year again. We have nearly reached the end of the Financial Year. Time to put on my thinking cap and try to recall what I have achieved in the past 12 months. Time to say good things about myself and try to impress the management. Yep..Yep..What else...Its Performance Appraisal (PA) time.

Let’s see...what have I contributed? What would be my achievements? Errr....*thinking* Hmmm...*still thinking*. Darn... I’m struggling here, guys. I’ve always hated filling in the Perfomance Appraisal form but this is the first time in the past 7 years plus in this company that I find it difficult to describe myself. Not that I don’t know what I’ve done. Its just that there’s nothing to brag about. More of "So what? Anyone can do that". I don't feel fully satisfied as compared to the previous years when I at least know I’m doing something right. I guess its kind of hard to justify the achievements. Its a new department. We are learning new things and adjusting as we go along. There’s not much focus cause there’s a lot to do. It gets worse when decisions and directions keep changing.

I’m staring at this form now whilst listening to Gwen Stefani’s Luxurious (hoping to get some inspiration) and thinking..would it actually make a difference if I actually take the extra effort to ‘beautify’ my PA? Surely the bosses already know what rating to give me without having to read it in black & white. Even boss said to me the other day "I have a feeling what to give you already but let me just read your write-up. It may or may not change my opinion". Sheesh...Thanks boss. I know I can always count on you...

A conversation I had with a colleague today..

"Have you done it?"

"Nope"

"When’s the deadline again?"

"Thursday, I think"

"What? This Thursday?Alamak...How? Sempat ke?"

Of course. Typical of us. Doing things at the very last minute. Was a bit worried about it and spent the whole day planning out what to write. Somehow or rather, my colleagues looked so relax. They didn’t seem to worry at all. Some didn’t even bother and some even laughed at me and said ‘Trueblue is so SKIMA’. I don’t know why I was so paranoid about this PA thingy. Too paranoid that I even dreamt that I had a review session with Big Boss and he gave me the worst rating ever. Hehe...Yeah..maybe I am a bit skima. Times like these, I find it hard to run away from my Ms Goody Two Shoes character. Ack..! I guess I need to tone down a bit.

Coming back to the Performance Appraisal form, I’m just gonna describe what I can. What’s done is done. I’ll be happy to just get an average rating :). So, lets just hope for the best. Heehee..

of raku & brokeback mountain

2006-02-28T10:31:00.000+08:00

it was long overdue, but finally me and E managed to get around to bringing jim and gfren for a japanese buffet..

jim is my *handyman for free*..

for being related to me, he helped me setup this computer thing that he assembled himself i-dont-know-how with complete delivery service..
supervised the orang-pasang-khemah whenever we have any 'do' at our place and i'm left alone..

so, promised jim that wud take him out for a meal of choice, and thus seven of us spent a whole 3 hours last saturday nite eating tonnes and tonnes of sashimi, teppanyaki, tempura, sukiyaki, miso agedashi-tofu stuff.. it was yummy, and by the end of the meal, i was saying "i think i can live in japan... mushi2x" :-D

they had ice cream n stuff for dessert there too, but i only had a teeny-weeny chocolate cake.. masa tu dah kenyang..

but when we stopped by at hartamas later to get some dvds, i saw my favourite ice-cream man... makan lagi.... *sigh* i couldnt resist the gelato in nutella flava, yes they make nutella ice cream too.. takpela kan.. dah lama tak makan nutella.. where's that weighing scale again?

i got two dvds then.. the controversial 4 golden globe wins & 8 academy award nominees brokeback mountain.. and cameron diaz's chick-flick in her shoes.. although two-guys kissing is a bit tooo much for me... but the movie different.. and i wanted to know what happened to the two guys after they moved on.. i'll not spoil this for those who havent watched it, but to those who have, tell me, what really happened to jack twist? i tak paham laa what really happened to jack...

anyways.. i had a great weekend last week.. and this working week feels like a holiday too.. heehee boss is away till friday ;-D

Am hoping.....

2006-02-23T18:26:00.000+08:00

1.
I haven’t been feeling well these past 2 weeks. It started off with having a sore throat. Then last week I had the sniffles. This week it turned to coughing. Its been so bad that my stomach muscles hurt every time I cough, my eyes get watery, my chest hurts and I can’t even talk properly. My throat feels so itchy that I feel like taking it out and scrubbing it with berus dawai. Argghh!!

Anyway, my beloved sister gave me a scare yesterday. With the latest report of bird flu findings at the Genting Klang area, she warned me about the possibility of having the same sickness since I live around the same area. Aiyoo...please don’t scare me la...I panicked a bit and wanted to find out more about this H591 virus (obviously was ignorant about the virus when things were fine and dandy). I quickly checked out the symptoms:
-Fever
-Sore throat
-Muscle aches
-Headache
-Lethargy
-Conjunctivitis (eye infections)
-Breathing problems
-Chest pains

Alamak...Those symptoms can be seen in any normal sickness. So, how to tell? My doctor didn’t say anything when I went to see him on Tuesday. He only said "come back if you’re still coughing after a week". Gosh! Should I hit the panic button?? I hope I get well real soon. Pray for me guys.........

2.
The day I dreaded finally came last Saturday. My maid (C*) went back to Indonesia for good. I was praying D* wouldn’t go berserk but surprisingly she handled it well. I have a feeling she thinks C* is going for a short trip and will be back soon. I tried hard not to cry but couldn’t control the sadness. I shed a few tears as we hugged goodbye. I thanked her for everything and will truly miss her.

As expected, D* has been asking for C* these past few days. At the moment, its still under control. As long as she doesn’t get ‘demam rindu’, then we’ll be ok.

I’ve been doing the cooking and cleaning since C* left. Tiring but what to do....Someone’s got to do it, right? Actually housework is not that bad and besides, I love to clean. We are in the midst of getting a new maid. We’ve been told that she can’t wait to work in Malaysia. I wonder why...but anyway, I hope she’ll turn out fine.

I am what I am

2006-02-20T16:10:00.000+08:00

I am patient and a lover of peace
I wonder what the future beholds
I hear my inner voice speaking
I see the need for constant improvement
I want to live with purpose, joy and fulfilment
I am patient and a lover of peace

I pretend I don’t care what people think of me
I feel the need to be accepted
I touch the people I care
I worry about losing a loved one
I cry when absolute frustration sweeps in
I am patient and a lover of peace

I understand life can be hurtful and not always fair
I say take the life that you have and give it your best
I dream for life-time happiness
I try not to take for granted the things closest to my heart
I hope to live a good and honourable life
I am patient and a lover of peace
I am what I am
I am me

the v-day today

2006-02-14T11:31:00.000+08:00

Today is valentine’s day and was listening to hitz.fm on the way to work... Rudy and Jay Jay were playing some background harp instrumental music which is a bit weird cos their voice were so energetic but the music is like some goddesses or angels playing on clouds.. Their voice should be more gentle la to accompany that kind of music or else, skip the harp thing..
I asked Mrjones "eh, today is valentine’s day. You tak nak bawak I keluar makan ke ??" he made his funny drag queen look with hands over his lips and said "oops!".. Not very romantika d’amour..
A colleague of mine from F1 sent me valentine’s wishes sms.. I can always count on him to send me good wishes on any day that worth celebrating from Awal Muharram to V-day, quite well balanced this fellow.
Yesterday on my way home, there was a thin guy in the lrt carrying a bouquet of pink roses in a transparent red plastic bag. Wah..cheapskate jugak mamat ni beli bunga on the day before V-Day to avoid paying an arm and his legs for the roses. As soon as he sat beside me, I have to turn my face the other way while fishing out my minyak cap kapak. His B.O is so bad, my acid tummy already running through my oesophagus upward to my tongue.. With my super-sensitive nose equivalent of an X-men character, it was really an uncomfortable ride. Turun kat Taman Bahagia pulak tu from Pasar Seni aduhhhh, seksanya !!! I kept thinking, the best V-Day gift his girlfriend should give him is the extra power deodorant..
Before him was this scrawny and sloppy guy with long nails that he kept tweaking to get rid of the soil under his nails and strong odour of cigarette.. It clings everywhere of his scrawny being - hair, clothes, arm, hand... Why oh why can’t his female friend do some good and tell this guy to buck up on cleanliness and chew some gum to reduce his cigarette smells ?? Why must he keep long nails like a woman is beyond me. I peeked at his nails and saw them quite shapely.. Bukan dia nak letak nail polish pun...
Anyway babes, have a Happy Valentine’s Day.. No, I’m not celebrating it but I know rosey will be getting a bouquet today :)) lucky you

40 minits of exercise and increase of energy to....

2006-02-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

darlings,

FIRSTLY, My dear SOCLOSE, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART!
I am so ashamed that i missed and forgot your birthday.....especially when i just asked when exactly is the day about 2 weeks before.. Beb, Do forgive me...with my forgetful and absent minded ways. In March, when you come back...let me give you a big hug and a lovely treat!! I pray that you are always blessed and happy and that all your wishes and dreams come true very soon! Beb, I have no excuses but the same ol lame one of being to busy with work and life in general...bad..bad...good friends deserve more than that huh~...sorri beb...dont be angry...dont merajuk....if it makes you feel better...Just get even!!

I have a suggestion that this blog....puts the birthday of all its owners on the main page...so as to pay tribute to each of the owner on their birthday...hahhaha...more like so that the rest dont forget!

Its been just over a month, i have started on my mission to loose some fat and be fit...and almost 3 weeks over doing regular exercise. So far, its been ok...lost some weight ...but so much more to go (HELP !...can my usually lack of willpower let me down again??!!)..The good thing is , apart from the beach holiday in terengganu for 4 days....i have without fail, for almost 4 weeks, woke up early in the morning and excercize on the treadmill for 40 mins daily...huh...that it an achievement for someone who has not exercise in yonks and forgot the smell of sweat.

So...bangun, sembahyang isya,...wait for subuh...the hubby gets ready the lanai with the treadmill, opens the windows and pasang radio....then after subuh, put on the ol sports snickers and WALLA....im actually exercising after years of not doing much exercise!

I dont know how long this will last...but motivate me to do it ok?...it feels better and altho i nap in the car to work ....im very the rejuvenated...a bit hungry masa time lunch....cause...am eating less than before (was eating 2 servings before)..

Ok....to cut the story...what i have seen change since i started exercising...besides being sweat drenched and liking the smell is that i seem to have increased my energy to you know what la...hehehe...betul!...dunno whyla...mebbe its the exercise or maybe its something else...heheh..but the hubby is thinking its worth it having to wake up early and teman me when im on the treadmill...! if the side effect is that!!

no such action tonight la...heheh since the other half is out of state..

take care sweeties! and to CR dont go drooling over aussie hunks....hehhee be professional!! CLIP ( Coh, Lo, Int and Prof)...souns familiar??

"And you were saying..."

2006-02-08T08:11:00.000+08:00

i spent 2 hours in the morning and 2 hours in the afternoon yesterday evaluating bankers..

you see, as part of my project down under (and it is LAND of down under ohkay), we will be appointing a banker to advice us on the transaction.. and since we have shortlisted a few, we had these sessions to meet them in person, clarify stuff, blableebla..

but halfway thru one of the session.. i just simply lost my concentration......

since the project will be at LAND of down under, the potential advisors came from there too..

and LAND of down under = summertime = a lot of surfing = this banker looking absolutely surfer material.. with suchsuchsuch gorgeous blue eyes.....

i just lost what he was saying.. dont get me wrong, for me personality is numero uno, and i hardly go *drool* over looks..

but maybe i was just so damn bored in the session....

*sigh* what am i gonna put in the proposal... which banker should i propose...

that's why *concreterose*, next time.. CONCENTRATE!!!

Tagged by Ms Angel Eyes

2006-02-06T20:49:00.000+08:00

I was tagged by Ms Angel Eyes some time ago. Baru dapat peluang to do it, so here goes....

Three names you go by:
This is a bit tough...Not because I don’t even know my own name but because we (me and the other co-owners of this blog) have agreed to remain anonymous, so I can’t reveal my real name. I guess I’ll just share my other nicknames. Can only give 2 because the other nicknames are related to my real name..Hehe..Sorry...
1. Babe (ok, ni cheating sikit sebab we call each other babe)
2. Adik (only my mom and a few aunties call me this)

Three screen names you have had:
Apa benda screen names ni? If its names thats been used in movies etc, then I don’t think I have any...

Three things you like about yourself:
Being such a great person, of course there are many things to like... Ok, that was a joke. Don’t everyone puke at the same time. Aiyaa, tak retila nak puji diri sendiri..Oklah..lemme think..I guess its
1. I’m a thoughtful and caring person (or maybe I je yang perasan kot?)
2. I’m organised
3. I laugh a lot (I like to think it brings joy to other people :) )

Three things you don’t like about yourself:
1. My clumsiness
2. My need to always try to please people, being too nice and afraid to let people down. There is a danger of being manipulated/taken advantaged of *grrrr*
3. Indecisive (classic example: can’t even decide where to eat for lunch. Concreterose and mrsjones, I think we share the same problem)

Three parts of your heritage:
1. Patience
2. Like things neat and tidy
3. Generous

Three things that scare you:
1. Losing a loved one
2. Water (no, this does not mean I don’t take showers..its just that I can’t swim so I’m afraid to go into swimming pools, swim in the sea etc)
3. Asked to present something which I didn’t prepare or wasn’t ready to do it. Obviously I don’t want to look like some idiot, not knowing what to say....

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. Drink a glass of plain water in the morning
2. Brush my hair before I go to bed at night
3. Won’t leave the house without my handphone

Three things you are wearing right now:
Apart from clothes (obviously),
1. Watch
2. Bracelet
3. Necklace

Three of your favourite bands (or artists at the moment):
1. Gwen Stefani
2. Black Eyed Peas
3. Mariah Carey

Three of your favourite songs at present:
1. Dont Lie by Black Eyed Peas
2. Luxurious by Gwen Stefani
3. Its like that by Mariah Carey feat JD

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months:
1. More outings with old friends
2. Exercise more regularly. Perhaps try Yoga
3. Be more assertive. Try to be less of a Miss Goody Two Shoes

Three things you want in a relationship (love included in the package):
1. Trust and understanding
2. Open communication. Shouldn’t be a need to hide things
3. A lot of laughter. It can certainly brighten up those boring or sad moments

Two truths and a lie:
1. I once got caught by the police for lepaking with friends who smoked after school
2. I love to perform on stage
3. I represented my secondary school in hockey
Guess which one is the lie? Sapa teka dengan tepat dapat hadiah!!!

Three people who have to take this quiz now or die painfully:
Hmm...I think I’ll keep this open. Whoever feels like doing it, be my guest. Perhaps my blog buddies would like to try...

All play and no work makes Trueblue a fat girl

2006-02-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

*Groan*Groan* And more *Groan*...Oh man....This is bad. Today’s the 5th day of the long holiday and I haven’t done anything productive. I’m really taking advantage of this holiday to do absolutely nothing at all. If I were to have a theme for this holiday, I think it would be "Food: Go stuff yourself".

I’ve been bored and I believe will continue to be bored. The plan was to just spend the holidays at home. So, what else is there to do but read, eat, sleep, watch dvd, eat, sleep...oooohh, did I mention eat and sleep? Hmm...maybe I’ll mention it a bit more...Eat, sleep, eat, sleep...sometimes its more of eat, eat, eat and eat. Moving into my own place doesn’t help la. Back at my parent’s, my mum gets to decide the menu. So if I don’t like the dishes, I won’t eat. But now since I have the opportunity to cook what I like, there's the tendency to eat more. I get to decide the menu for breakfast, lunch, tea and dinner.... Its been about 3 weeks since we've moved and I’ve come to a point where I don’t know what to cook coz its pretty much the same routine every other day. I think I’ll go nuts the next time my maid asks "nak masak apa, kak?". And she does that 4 times a day. Argghh...Even a visit to my parents or in laws house, is just the same. Its like some VIP has come to visit them, so they make sure there's always glorious food served on their tables. So, we can't really help but eat, eat and eat....

Went to Sungai Wang on Monday and bought 10 DVDs. Since then, its been like a movie marathon, one DVD after another. And of course there’s the munching that goes along while watching the movies. Peanuts, kerepek, chips, sandwich, muruku, biscuits, ice-cream...you name it, I have it all. So its still eat, eat, eat and eat. *sigh* I really need to get back to work and stop this routine of pigging out. Wow..I can't believe I just said that!

I’m afraid to try on my work pants now..I have a feeling its gonna be a bit tight :). But its ok...I guess this long break will do good to us all. A great opportunity for us to unwind before we get back to our busy life at the office. So, I better make full use of it and enjoy it while I can. Maybe I just need to control the food intake or start worrying about dieting next week. :)

Oh well..Its time to watch another movie. Gonna go grab some Oreo biscuits. Yummy...

Of office crisis to a beach holiday

2006-01-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone!..its been awhile since my last post...hehhe tenggelam timbul je..thats typical of me lah!. Have been reallly busy girls...same ol excuse huh?..truly, its been a few weeks of hecticness and crisis...thank god tommorrow , will be off for some relaxing holiday by the beachside.

as I write now, the hubby is packing the bag,,he insist because he says it requires a certain skill to make everything fit in a bag..5 diapers per day time 4 full days times 2 kids...oh yeah...the float, swimsuit and toys!...grrrr ...is there such thing as travelling light with children..

im hoping that since im going to the resort im working with...my staff wont be pestering me for a meeting, discussions and what not...leave me be.....not until 31 or 1st at least...Managed to combine a holiday with a training that has been long overdue...so 3 full days of lepakking (hopefully) and on the last day....a few hours of meeting and training!....

oh ya...the 2 days before the break....had a problem with the computer and well...lost 1 year of payroll data for 3 companies...until now im still stunned and trying not to go bananas and scream out loud...talk about shitty timing...just when the e and ea forms are due!!....why does this things happen when
1. am very busy
2. just before a long break
3. just when you thought it was going good

dazed is the word...im still dazzed at what happen...but well...duh...aint the end of the world.....so lets just put it aside and have a great holiday!

my staff came up to my room one day....she was looking a bit worried...and started saying...Puan...saya ada benda nak bincang dengan Puan...ALAMAK...dont tell me she wants to resign...just came in after raya and so far learns fast and is a fast worker...Dreaded to hear the rest...anyway..I said apa dia...'macam ni puan, saya pun baru tahu,...masa puan pegi cuti panjang...saya mengandung...macam mana puan...bulan mei ni saya beranak...macam mana...saya nak kerja'

huh?...macam mana apa?....dah nak beranak...beranakla...macam mana lagi?...basically she was worried about her job,,,because of the maternity leave aspect...she was afraid I wont be happy and get someone else and she would be out of a job..That girl obviously know nothing about labour law and maternity rights of employee kut....or she was afraid that i will suspect that she new that she was already preggers even before she got the job...well..what does it really matter now..I cant just say...sebab you nak cuti panjang 2 bulan...saya nak ambik org lain.. ANYWAY...i want her to continue working...i couldnt resist asking...lepas dapat baby nak kerja ke?..Nak puan...manalatau,,,dah dapat baby nak dok rumah jaga anak...tak nak keje pulak....jadi kalau rasa malas nak kerja, baik ckp skrg....Just had to ask that .

my point is...wherever you work...you shouldnt be afraid or worried to tell your employers that you are having a baby...and worry about your job...its what human do...procreate right..and also work for a living..tak taula kalau you have a baby every single year for 7 years....so maternity leave of 2 month every year...than maybe that wont sit well with some bosses or employers.. anyhow....i just found the conversation a bit funny .,...especially when she said macam mana ni puan?...apa yang nak di macam mana kan...if your preggers you give birth...end of story!!

ok guys...i dont know what im rambling about ....a bit sleepy....but trying to keep awake cos had a late dinner...grrr very bad for my current attempt to loose the excessive fats! will update you guys in detaill...after the end of the month....hopefully the attempt is still going strong!

during dinner just now....had a nice chat on kolej and uni days and on ol flames...with my dearest,,.its funny how things work out in the end...your jodoh will most likely be ...someone that matches and complements you...for an ol2 almost flame...by the name of 'duffy'...whereever you are..heres wishing you a good life and happiness...hope youve sorted your life...i do have to thank you for making my years of being 18 an exciting one!..Oh god...tha was over a decade ago!! sigh.

week long holiday with no place to go

2006-01-27T09:28:00.000+08:00

Basically, I have no idea on what to do for the upcoming CNY + Awal Muharram + FT day holidays :((
Wanted to go for a cuti-cuti Malaysia but I’m sure hotels and beaches are jam-packed with holiday makers plus the compulsory hotels’surcharge too.. Wanted to travel overseas but I am still in my first trimester. How I long to laze at Bali beaches or at its villa’s or hotel’s pool... Which reminds me that I’ve been wanting to go to either Tanjong Jara or Pangkor Laut Resort. Supposedly the most romantic getaway in Malaysia with countless of international travel awards under their belt. Wanted to go to Bandung too for some cool weather... I also wanted to go to Bangkok for some serious shopping but that was part of the plan before I got myself pregnant.
Am scratching my head for ideas to spend the week long holiday. Part of me want to be a bit wifely and do some housekeeping at my room. Some part of me want to finish up watching SATC season 4 and 6 dvd, LOTR Return of the King Extended Version dvd and Brownies dvd, an Indonesian chick flick bought on holiday which is currently gathering dusts on my shelf. I also have 3 weeks worth of mrjones’ work shirts to iron, too - argghhh !!
I also have some flickering urge to go to one utama to look for some pants and flat sandals. I heard that a couple from my Penang’s clan plan to do some serious swipe-now-suffer-later IKEA shopping and now my fiend-ish sister-in-law will be coming down to KL too, adding to my gloom.. Bors bors !!
Two things are certain for me this holiday. Am going to henna my hair and go karaoke with hubby and our karaoke buff friend. Whenever I look into the mirror, I saw strands of silverish hair glistening and feel that, now it’s time for me to do something about it. Was a bit upset when I found out that mum has give away all her packs of henna powder, grrrr... I’m not really into karaoke but I do it anyway to amuse my husband and our friend. Am currently listing songs that I plan to sing for the session. I terasa nak hentam nyanyi lagu sheila on 7’s berhenti berharap and all time favourite - mungkin nanti. I will throw in my national anthem too - black eyed peas’ my humps, hmm nice....
My default activities this week long holiday will be :
- putting up my feet in anticipation to nurse my tummy upsets and backaches or whatever aches there may be...
- irritate my darling cat, chi chi girl up to her eyeballs..
So, what u guys will be doing ? Nothing keji I bet..which reminds me, rasa nak jenguk blog ah beng sikalang..

Only if you're bored :)

2006-01-25T19:25:00.000+08:00

You know when you enter a lift/elevator and you don’t know anyone? The feelings worse when its just you and another person. You might feel uncomfortable, thinking "should I be friendly or ignore?" You don’t know what to do while waiting to get to your floor..so to kill time you either pretend to look serious or stare at the buttons or stare at the door or play with your fingers, buat-buat sms or whatever. You feel the journey going up/down feels like forever. So basically you’re boredlah. What can you do?... Hehe...Here’s what you can do to amuse yourself. Observe other people’s reaction. Would they be amused too? One way to kenakan orang..Hehe..

Things to do when you’re bored in an elevator

When there's only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the shoulder and then pretend it wasn't you.
Push the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile and go back for more.
Call the Psychic Hotline from your handphone and ask if they know what floor you're on.
Hold the doors open and say you're waiting for your friend. After a while, let the doors close and say, "Hi Dilla. How's your day been?"
Move your desk into the elevator and whenever someone gets on ask if they have an appointment.
Stare, grinning at another passenger for a while and then announce, "I have new underwear on."
Pretend you are a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the passengers.
Crack open your briefcase or handbag, and while peering inside, ask,"Got enough air in there?"
Walk up to somebody and smell them and give a gross face, or do the opposite and act as though you enjoy the smell, sigh or something
Start laughing hysterically at nothing at all
Ask if you can push the button for other people and then push the wrong ones
Do the macarena

Dare to try?
Anymore to add?

Its time to let go

2006-01-23T17:34:00.000+08:00

Nope, this is not some tragic love story. Just an example of how hard it is to let go of something that we’ve grown fond of. This is a story of my beloved maid. Yes, I don’t mind calling her beloved because she is close to me and the family. You see, I’m having a hard time believing that she is leaving soon. About 3 more weeks to go before she leaves us for good. *C* has only been with us for 3 years but we’ve all grown so attached to her. I couldn’t ask for a better maid.

With all the issues or problems we hear about maids nowadays, we would be very lucky to get a maid who we can trust and depend on. So now when I’ve found one, its just so hard to let her go. I know she doesn’t want to leave but she has no choice because of the ultimatum given by the husband. "Kalau kamu tak balik, aku cari perempuan lain". *Sigh*. But I cannot be selfish. This is something she has to sort out with her husband and I don’t want us to be the reason if something bad happened to their marriage.

*C* took care of D* since she was 2 months old. They have a special bond and I know D* loves her very much. I remembered when I first took *C*, I was adamant that no way will I allow a maid to be close to my daughter. Of course there was the fear that my baby would love the maid more than me. I started off wanting to do everything for D* which added to more stress, pain and pressure especially when I got back to work. I felt it was like a competition..."who does D* love the most?". But slowly, I realised that D*’s feelings for me would never change. Sure, they are close but D* still jumps with joy everytime I come back from work. And she still cries for me...so I guess thats evidence to show that things don’t change. No one can separate the mother-daughter bond.

Some people may say, don’t simply trust your maid. I don’t simply trust her...She’s earned the right to be trusted. We treat her like one of the family. Maybe thats why we get along so well with each other. I’m not a fussy employer and there was never the need to tell her off. I don’t know how she manages to do all these good things. She doesn’t need to be told what to do, she’s very hardworking, she’s soft-spoken, kind-hearted and what I love most about her is that she is sooo patient.....soooo patient with the noti, noti little D*. I have to admit I sometimes just give up when D* starts getting hyper-active...and as always, C* is ready to the rescue.

My utmost fear right now is whether D* will be ok when *C* is gone. We have started telling her that *C* is leaving but we’re not sure whether she understands. The other day *C* told her "D*, Kak *C* nak balik tau..". D* replied "sorry *C*..I’m sorry *C*". I guess she thought *C* meant if she was naughty again, *C* would go back. Kesian pulak...

So now we are busy looking out for a new maid. But its kind of hard because we keep comparing back to *C*. Many questions comes to mind...Will she be as good as *C*? Can she get along well with D*? I guess we can’t be too sure kan? I've been lucky all this while and now I just have to be prepared for any problems that may come. Its one of those risks I have to take.

All I wanna do is ..................

2006-01-21T06:27:00.000+08:00

One more night to go...Tomorrow night, the bed will no longer be cold...It's been too long, I think this is the longest period I have not had sex, a devastating 3 months, phew. Got my hair done after work today, hopefully he likes it, it's kind sexy and messy, a dangerous combination I suppose? Tomorrow morning is Body Pump and if time permits waxing and all the jazz...

Timing is not great though, next week is such a busy week, we are having a Board meeting and I only had couples of days to put together 5 board papers including our Biz Plan & Budget !! The meeting was supposed to be on the 10th of Feb, and somehow the Directors decided earlier this week to bring forward the meeting. So tomorrow morning, after Body Pump and hopefully waxing, am off to my boss house for a review. He knows I need to go to the airport in the afternoon, so hopefully the review won't take long :-(

The only part I like about long distance relationship is the passionate, hot love making session that comes along after an extended period of deprivation. In fact, when I was doing my crazy business trips, sex was something that remedied the situation. It was the anticipation of great sex following a business trips that makes him calmer and less resentful over the fact that am not performing my duties as his wife.

So for tomorrow, I've identified which one of my Victoria Secret sets I will be putting on. I have my Benefit body balm, and sparkling powder to complete the presentation. I remember NA told me once, 'you must be a prostitute to your husband !' I have to admit, it is one of the best advice I've received on matrimonial bliss.

I am going through distance for a great sex, but this thingy that was mentioned by trueblue is definitely over the top. But, as I've mentioned to sweetpea the other day, I am not ruling out facial plastic surgery as I get get older. May be not Botox, but some other low maintenance, less evasive methods.

Hubby will be around for 10 days or so. Among the highlight for his visit is a romantic (hopefully, we don't drive each other crazy by Day 2 !!!) break to Paris, afternoon tea at Sketch and a London sightseeing tour on the brown tourist bus....

Oh yes, this is something news worthy...2nd season of Desperate Housewives has already started...

Geisha on a Friday :-)

2006-01-20T17:28:00.000+08:00

YIPPEE!!!! am sooo glad it's a friday :-)

i've had a long week this week.. with four projects in my hand, i've been running from meetings to meetings to meetings this week..

...and today, i had to withstand 6 hours of how to value a company's worth using this method, that method, that my eyes completely sees figures now.. as if the 6 hours wasn't torturous enuff, i had to join the bankers for lunch and missed my usual destressing sessions with trueblue & mrsjones.. *darn*

thank god i've got a couple of stuff lined up this weekend to help me chill... starting off with memoirs of a geisha tonite (i've read the book > loved it > hope the movie s as good) and coffee after..

*muahmuah* everyone.. the weekend has started :-)

Extreme Makeover

2006-01-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

Did you guys read ‘The Star’ yesterday? There’s this particular article which gave me the shock of my life. Ok..maybe thats a bit of an exaggeration but still..I was kind of surprised. If you have been keeping abreast with the latest development in plastic surgeries, then maybe you know about this already. Maybe its just me who’s been ignorant to the world of science or probably I lived under a ‘tempurung’ all this while. Hehe...

You know how some women go through drastic measures (well, maybe not that drastic some women) to beautify themselves like botox, liposuction, nose job,tummy tuck, breast enlargement and what not? Well, I just got to know there’s this new trend in America (where else, huh?): Vaginal reconstruction including hymenoplasty.

My first reaction to this was "What the *toot* is that?". Well...apparently it offers patients new virginity. Women who go through this ‘revirgination’ procedure will undergo hymenoplasty, which involves reattaching the hymen (*ouch*) . She will be able to improve her sex life or enjoy a second honeymoon.

My second reaction to this was "WOW! We can do that now??" Amazing!

Girls who lost their virginity before marriage and maybe afraid to tell their soon-to-be husbands (assuming its not the same guy) would be jumping with joy to hear this latest development. I guess its easier now because they can show they have no sexual history. There was this lady in the article who shared that she underwent the surgery as a special gift for her husband on their 16th wedding Anniversary. She wasn’t a virgin when she got married and thought the best gift to give him was ‘revirgination’. "It was a real sentimental gift, it was something I could recreate for him and he was thrilled" she said.

The American Society of Plasttic Surgeons claim that vaginal surgery is one of the fastest growing trends in plastic surgery. An owner of a Health and Beauty Centre in New York explained that "Hymenoplasty is for women who want to please their husband or their lover and they know he wants to experience intercourse with a virgin".

I was really surprised with that statement. I mean, I know the first time is important but after a few years, do guys really wish their partners were virgins again? To tighten things up, I understand..but virgins again?

I don't know.....One thing’s for sure, not really interested to try all these plastic surgery procedures. I like to assume that my loved one is satisfied and pleased with me..inside and out. And hopefully it will remain that way for a very long time :)

men are from mars.. and women are from venus?

2006-01-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

Eight words.... two meanings....

his and her versions...... betul ke?

1. THINGY (thing-ee) noun

Female...... Any part under a car's hood.

Male..... The strap fastener on a woman's bra.

2. VULNERABLE (vul-ne-ra-bel) adj.

Female.... Fully opening up one's self-emotion to another.

Male.... Playing cricket without a box.

3. COMMUNICATION (ko-myoo-ni-kay-shon) noun

Female... The open sharing of thoughts and feelings with one's partner.

Male... Leaving a note before taking off on a golf/fishing trip with the boys.

4. COMMITMENT (ko-mit-ment) noun

Female.... A desire to get married and raise a family.

Male...... Trying not to hit on other women while out with this one.

5. ENTERTAINMENT (en-ter-tayn-ment) noun

Female.... A good movie, concert, play or book.

Male...... Anything that can be done while having teh tarik.

6. FLATULENCE (flach-u-lens) noun

Female.... An embarrassing by product of indigestion.

Male...... A source of entertainment, self-expression, male bonding.

7. MAKING LOVE (may-king luv) noun

Female...... The greatest expression of intimacy a couple can achieve.

Male.. Call it whatever you want, just as long as we do it.

8. REMOTE CONTROL (ri-moht kon-trohl) noun

Female.... A device for changing from one TV channel to another.

Male... A device for scanning through all 375 channels every 5 minutes.

hmmm... betul ke?
but the last one seems familiar.....

Decision

2006-01-17T17:58:00.000+08:00

Whats new at work? Nothing..The same old boring things to do. This year is gonna be a busy year for me. Not looking forward to that. Had lots to do today but somehow I had one of those "can’t be bothered" syndrome. Hehe..Managed to squeeze in a bit of surfing time and came upon this.

Not sure if this is some kind of personality test but every answer has its reasoning.....

A company was hiring new staff. One question in the written exam was:

You are driving your car in a wild stormy night. You pass by a bus station, and you see three people waiting for the bus:
1. An old lady who looks as if she is about to die.
2. A doctor who had once saved your life.
3. A man/woman you have been dreaming to be with.

You can only take one passenger in your car. Which one will you choose?
Please explain your answer.

Think about it before you continue reading.

You could pick up the old lady. She is going to die, and thus you should save her first. You could take the doctor, because he once saved your life. This will be the perfect chance to pay him back. However, you could always pay the doctor back in the future, but you may never be able to find the perfect lover once you pass this chance.

Decision...decision...

The candidate who was eventually hired (out of 200 applicants) did not have to explain his answer.
WHAT DID HE SAY?

He simply answered: "Give the car key to the doctor. Let him take the old lady to the hospital. I will stay and wait for the bus with the man/woman of my dreams."

Sometimes, we would gain more if we were able to give up our stubborn limitations.

Hmmm...What would you have done?

"Ouch.. Kurang kuat yaa"

2006-01-16T11:40:00.000+08:00

i have a love-hate 'relationship' with massages..

love, because i simply love pampering myself by going to a spa.. getting all the lulurs and all the massages..

...but dont like it when the masseuse tend to put too much pressure on my bod. it puzzles me how this petite young thing can exert such strength.. i had to tell the indonesian gal to kurangkan the pressure like 5 times i think.. but stil, i never say no whenever anyone suggests a trip to some spa.. i guess after kena sound 2-3 kali, the girl somehow gets the hang of how strong (or not so strong) massage would put me to blissful sleep..zzzzz.......

yesterday, we went for a trip to Dewi Sri Spa Martha Tilaar. 'we' meaning trueblue, sweetpea, lilsy and CL. soon to be parting from singledom, CL's purpose to the spa was to rejuvenate and make herself xtra gorgeous before her BIG DAY!! the rest of us were there to:

keep CL company...
pamper ourselves also..
catch up on things...

it was great. i chose a simple traditional massage, mani and pedi.. simple? well.. simple compared to the 4-hour gaboom steambath-lulur-shower-massage-flowerbath-lotion-hairtreatment-pedicure (*phew*) thingy that we had before SoClose went off.. but the reason for this much simpler pampering was so that me, trueblue and sweetpea could chit-chat while having our hands and feet done.... yes, we talked about EVERYTHING.. but sworn secrecy.. i wonder how the indonesian girls kept a straight face in response to whatever was said..hmmm.......

after lunch with the gals, we parted ways.. me & sweetpea plans for another do end february.. hmm we see first ok? it was a great bonding session, and hopefully CL had a great pampering.. but she seemed very fresh after.. (but whenlah CL is not fresh n bubbly kan...)

shh.. i wont say which treatment lilsy did heehee..

p/s: my nails (yes, even my toenails) are still shimmery shiny ;-)

card junkie

2006-01-16T11:36:00.000+08:00

I’m a sucker for membership cards. My wallet cardholder already bulging at its seams. Last week, I received my new permanent PriorityClub card. It’s actually one of my hotel cards...ni semua boss I punya pasal. He told me to make the most of my company trips. For PriorityClub, I gain rewards if I stayed at Crowne Plaza hotels or Intercontinental hotels and resorts. Before that, my boss insisted that I join Hyatt Gold Passport club. So I diligently filled in the application form. All this happened during my trip to KK and Kuching last year. And then when it’s time to check-in at the airport, he asked me "Ey ! You don’t have an Enrich card ?" When I grinned sheepishly, he gave me that isk isk look.. "When you get back to the office, go to MAS website and fill the form". Aye aye boss ! Other than those two cards, I already have MarriottRewards (for staying lots of times there because of Forums) and Le Meridien’s Moments card.
Actually, I’m not really into hotel rewards card simply because I seldom travel and I hate sleeping in hotel’s room. Gives me the creeps. However, I have no qualms having other memberships card. For instance, last Friday I applied for a Clarins membership card. I purchase Clarins treatment oil and foot lotion so I might as well apply for the card and collect points every time I buy their products. Let’s see, in cosmetics and fragrance category, I have SK II and L’occitane. I used to have Shiseido You card but I didn’t renew it since I don’t use Shiseido anymore. Once, I applied for The Body Shop’s People card but it’s too exploiting for me to maintain. I have to collect 300 points within 6 months in order for me to get a RM30 rebate. If I don’t have enough 300 points, I can’t carry forward and the points will be forfeited. Zalimnya !! Since I’m not an avid Body Shop user, I refuse to apply for the next one. Not worth it. SK II lets me accumulate my points for a year and at least their redemption scheme is sensible. L’occitane is the best, although their products a bit pricey than Body Shop, I do enjoy 10% discount for every purchase I made and get to accumulate points. If I don’t have enough points to redeem their products, I can have RM10 - 20 rebate for my next purchase.. I don’t exactly remember.
I also have Isetan, Metrojaya and BonusLink cards. Among these three, the easiest for me to accumulate and redeem points is Metrojaya. At one point of time, I went crazy over Somerset Bay and East India clothes and bought them as if there’s no tomorrow. I even bought my bedsheets, pillow cases set, sham cover set, the whole works for my wedding there. To make it even better, I bought my SK II in Metrojaya too. For two years in a row, I received RM100 rebate from Metrojaya. Not bad, huh ? Compared to Isetan, the highest rebate I got so far is RM23 for accumulating more than RM 600 but less than RM 800 within 6 months. For my effort, I receive 3% rebate..Hai kedekutnya Jepun ni.. Last 6 months, I manage to accumulate 1540 Isetan points. That’s my highest and times 5%, I manage a lowly RM77 rebate than Metrojaya. Isetan pun buat perangai macam Body Shop jugak - points to be collected within 6 months. As for BonusLink, I have nothing exciting to buy in Parkson so my points hardly reach 1000 - for every Parkson purchase, I can only accumulate 50% out of it. Furthermore, I don’t like going there cause I hate the chinese version of their grand sale’s song.. I don’t buy Shell petrol for my one and only nationalistic reason. Collecting points in Tesco is not worth it cos I’m able to accumulate points of 25% only...
What else do I have here...aaa yes, my saviour during car breakdowns - AAM card. My car is an old car so having AAM card is really useful when I couldn’t start the car - it’s always batteries problem. I also have hardly-used Mesra, Maxis One Club, Dome, Times Privilege, ING and Mexx cards. Previously before I got married, I used to diligently swipe my Mesra card. Now not anymore ever since I go to the office with mrjones. I don’t know why I received Maxis card, it just came. I applied Dome card after being talked into it by one of the waitresses. Times is because I don’t get discounts from Kinokuniya. Mexx came with Her World magazine for January issue. For Mexx, I can get 10% discount but I never step into that shop, it’s in Berjaya Times Square. I don’t go to BTS beacuse I have no burning desire to be there. I think I will be an avid user of ING card after my baby is born. I also have Clark Hatch card - I applied last September and I plan to freeze my membership due to my pregnancy.
Thank god, I’m not a sucker for credit cards. To date, I have four..banyak la jugak eh..? I have Citibank Silver Visa and Clear Mastercard. I use CTB visa for my shopping and mastercard for bill payments. Nasib baik we are allowed 2 types of card for a bank, kalau tidak, semua kad Citibank I nak apply rasanya... HSBC card is supplementary card from mrjones. I pun tak sangka boleh dapat.. Oh I know why..at one point of time, I love eating at Strudels up to the level that the staffs knew my face and my love for nyonya laksa. And HSBC cardmembers can get 10% discount at Strudels.. He got tired of me pestering for the card just so that I can enjoy 10% discount. Finally, I have Direct Access card because it’s FREE FOR LIFE..no annual fees, sista !! Oh, I use that card for my big ticket purchases because they have 0% Installment Scheme. I bought my digi cam and specs using the 0% plan for smarter personal cash flow management, heh heh..
Last two years, one MBf card sales bozo offered me their Gold card. He called my office phone and after being talked into it, I agreed to apply since they say that it’s free for life and I get to accumulate BonusLink points. When the card did arrive, I am so pissed with the RM2k credit limit. Gold card with RM2k credit limit ? I don’t think so !! Plus, I have to pay annual fees in subsequent years and only have the first year fee waived. @#$ %^&$%$#$#@ salesperson !!! They called me so many times to remind me to activate the card but it all fell on my deaf ears.
Then, the same thing happened to me last year. OCBC offered me their Platinum card called Titanium. They promo me baik punya..I stand to win one of holiday condo in Singapore, rebates for 3G phones, spa offers and if I spend RM6k per year, no annual fee incurred. I kan tak boleh dengar free for life punya annual fee, so I agreed to apply. What do I get in my mail ?? A stoopid Gold OCBC card which I have to pay annually for RM160, this time no first year waiver.. Satu kali lagilah - #&%*$#^?#@ !! What’s with me and these con cardsales ? They reminded me to activate the card once and I acted blur when they called me about it - "what card ?? I don’t receive any ?!" At least they gave me RM6k credit limit compared to MBf. I now sworn off credit cards offers simply because what I ask is what I don’t get. I’m quite happy with my current credit cards anyway so I don’t think I want to add another card to my increasing collection. Okay, maybe if I get another genuine offer of FREE FOR LIFE card, I might consider it cos I’m a suckerrrrrr.......
So now, with those cards plus MyKad, driving license, BCB atm cards, I think I need to buy another boxy wallet cardholder. That I have to wait after August, *wink*